Reddie Nights

🔸Shot 93 ~ Your Shirt🔸

This one corresponds to Shot 90 in my Jyatt/Stenbrough Nights book ~Jae👑

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RICHIE'S POV

I lay in Bill's arms staring vacantly at the blank white ceiling of his bedroom. His arm lay beneath my head as a pillow as he curled up next me.

He was sound asleep while I was wide awake. I couldn't stop thinking about that night...the night everything changed.

"Richie?" he said softly. "Are you alright?"

"Yeah" I sighed, and he smiled.

He shifted his body so that he could sit up, bringing me with him. He kissed my shoulder as he held me from behind and rested his head in the crook of my neck.

"What's wrong?" he whispered.

He saw right through my lie.

But I didn't want to admit what was wrong. I want him to get a good night's sleep, not worrying about me or feeling sad. How could I tell him that I was still dying inside?

"Nothing" I whispered.

"Richie," he said gently," I know you. I know when you're upset. I know when you can't sleep and when something is bothering you. What's wrong, babe?"

"I..." I could barely get one word out without choking back tears.

They streamed down my face no matter how hard I tried to wipe them away.

"Shhh, it's okay, Richie, I'm right here" Bill cooed and rubbed my back. "Take a moment, let it all out. I'm here to listen when you're ready. I'm right here, it's okay"

Little did he know, that was part of the problem. I love Bill, but I'm still in love with Eddie. I wished he was here. I wish I was in Eddie's arms, laying next to him, holding him...

But he's gone.

"I miss Eddie" I sobbed.

Bill smiled mournfully and sympathetically as he wiped away my tears.

"I know you do"

"It hurts, Bill. I fucking miss him so much. I miss my baby. I miss Stan....my best friend"

His jaw tightened at the mention of Stan, and I realized how wrong of me that was. I'm not the only one who lost their soulmate.

"I-I'm sorry, Bill" I apologized sheepishly. "I didn't mean-"

"It's alright" he sighed, and I could see a few tears form and fall from his gentle blue eyes. "I miss him too"

Inevitably I let out another sob, and Bill began sobbing too. It was unbearable, the whole thing.

"C'mere" he quivered, and I obliged.

He lay back and held me tight in his arms. My tears streamed down my face and dripped onto Bill's chest as I laid my head there, the tears bleeding through his shirt.