Fire Heart (Todobaku)

I'm sorry

(Flashback)
"You look great today sharkboy." I smile down at the spiky red head that I now call my boyfriend. I absolutely fell head over heels for him, and his adorable toothy smile. He looks up into my eyes, and I can't help but blush as he starts to grin. "Aw aren't you the sweetest." he teases punching me lightly in the arm. He is the only person I have ever really opened up to, it's amazing what he has done to my life. "You know you make me the sweetest." I pull him in a hug, and his head fits perfectly into my chest. Running my fingers through his spikes I can't help but twirl them a bit. This is probably the highlight of my day. After classes we normally just meet behind the arena, and hangout. We pull away, and I slowly reach for his hand. Our relationship is kept a secret for now, but when the time is right we plan to open up. "Bakugou everyone thinks you're so mean, but you aren't like that at all. You're sweet with lots of ambitions, and the manliest person I know." his smile widens as he starts rubbing my thumb with his. This is the normal routine, we have class, then we hangout behind the arena, eat, and then we go back to the dorm. We got lucky, and it turns out that we got the same dorm room. As we make it back to our dorm I rub his hair softly, and we both lay down in my bed. His legs intertwined with mine as he lays his head on my chest while we watch TV. I love our relationship, we have no fights, we both respect each other, we both show our feelings, and it isn't awkward. Nothing could be better then how it is now, or so I thought. As our relationship grew we fell more in love with each other by the day. We let our close friends in on our secret, and that made everything even simpler. They were all very supportive except for one, and that was Kaminari which is Kirishimas best friend. It kind of made me mad, but oh well he isn't my friend so it didn't faze me that much. My only real friend was Kirishima, and I'm dating him so I didn't tell anyone else. The best memory with him that I have was the day we snuck out to go to the top of the bleachers in the arena, and watch the sunset. "Bakugou are you sure this is okay?" Kirishima asks looking around nervously. His red eyes sparkling in the setting sun. Of course if they found us we would get in trouble, but I can't let him know that. "Oh yeah, we're okay, if not I will say I held you hostage. Trust me, they'll believe it." I chuckle, and put my arm around him. I want to be as close to him as I possibly can. The sky is now a bright mixture of pinks, purples, and oranges as the sun sets on the horizon. No clouds are in sight which leaves just the perfect view of the sun. "This reminds me of you." I smile down at my little spiky haired sunshine. He makes me happy every second of the day, and can always brighten my mood. He smiles, and kisses my cheek lightly. We've never actually kissed on the lips before, just cheek and forehead. As the sun sets lower the brighter the pink gets in the sky, and the more it reminds me of him. "You're always so bright, and cheerful. That's a reason why I love you so much. No one has ever made me feel the way you make me feel." I rub his back softly, and continue to watch the sun. As we sit a few minutes later the sun is finally set. Kirishima slowly lifts his face to look up at me from where he had leaned his head on me earlier. I look down slowly with a teasing smile. I put my hand to his jaw, and slowly put my lips next to his. Making our lips to barley touch to leave it soft and sentimental. As we release I stare at Kirishimas face as he starts to blush. He then grabs my face, and we continue to kiss getting rougher after each time we break. "You don't understand how long I've wanted to do this." he laughs against my lips, and I can't help but smile back. We pull away one more time, and stare into each others eyes. Just staring at each other, and thinking about everything that had just happened.  My heart is now officially beating out of my chest as I watch him stand up. "Alright explosion boy, we better get back to our dorm." he winks jumping off the edge. I look down after him as he smirks. This isn't fair, his quirk won't allow him to get hurt. I run down the bleachers, and easily catch up to him. "I'm the manly one? You're the one who can jump off buildings." I grab his hand, and we continue to walk to our dorm. Once getting inside we do the usual, and cuddle silently in my bed. Petting his soft spikes down in front of his eyes. He always looks adorable like this, I wish he would leave it unstyled sometimes. He looks up with big puppy dog eyes that glisten in the light of the lamp we had turned on earlier. "I love you Bakugou." he smiles kissing me lightly on the cheek. My face reddens, and I kiss his forehead softly. "I love you too Sharkboy forever and always." After that night is when everything started to go down hill. Kirishima was more distant, and never really wanted to hangout anymore. Instead he would go hangout with Sero and Kaminari. Of course I could've went with them, but they aren't very fond of me. It seemed each day Kirishima grew further away from me, and he even started to avoid me in our own dorm. He no longer wanted to cuddle, to sneak out to look at the sunset, to even say I love you. Each day, and night I would say "I love you" with only the reply "I know." My heart was slowly breaking, and no one but him knew. He was the only one that knew I was slowly dying from the inside. People thought I was just pushing myself into a corner, but I was being forced into that corner. We haven't officially broke up so to me he was still my adorable Sharkboy. To him I was nothing but a simple friend. For weeks Kirishima played it off as if I were nothing, as if I wasn't there. It got the point where he wouldn't even come to the dorm at night, or anything. Finally, my patients had run dry. "Spiky haired freak get over here!" I yell angrily from across the room. I was more hurt then angry, but nobody makes a fool out of me. He walks hesitantly over to me, and I pull him out into the hallway. "What the hell are you doing? You think this is funny leaving someone out in the dark? You said you loved me, but that was never true was it? I was honest to you, I gave you every bit of emotion I had. You couldn't have just ended it a long time ago? I bet you loved to see me break! You loved to watch my whole world crumble beneath my feet, and no one except you would know." I hadn't realized it, but tears were streaming down my face. I had put my whole heart and soul into this relationship. I thought I was finally happy, and it was all taken away from me. "Bakugou I-I I'm sorry okay? I didn't want to hurt you, I never meant for this to happen. I do love you, but not in the way you want me too. I thought I loved you, but I don't. I should have told you sooner, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. You looked so happy, and you were actually smiling. I didn't want to take that away from you, but it looks I did worse then that. I'm sorry Bakugou, I still want you as a friend, and I still respect you. You're so manly, and strong I will always want to be like you!" he tries to defend himself, but I'm hearing nothing. My heart is in a million different pieces in the pit of my stomach. "You made me strong, you made me my best. Just tell me one thing, if it isn't me then who do you love?" I look down into his now tear filled eyes. I hate seeing him cry, but that's all over now. "Fine, I like Kaminari, I thought he was just my best friend, but the more I talked to him the more I realized I wanted to be with him. He is kind to everyone, and everyone enjoys his presence. He jokes all the time and..." I put my hand in front of his face to stop him from talking. "I don't need to know how you feel about him, and its whatever. Just don't bring him around our dorm. We may seem like friends in front of class, but you are dead to me." I growl, and walk back down the hallway. I'm not going to class today, I can't do it I will kill that Sparky. I leave him in the hallway without looking back. All of my dreams now shattered into little fragments in my mind as I lay back in the dorm.