Fire Heart (Todobaku)

why?

I enter the dorm quietly hoping that Bakugou would be sleeping. He didn't get to sleep in today so I figured he would end up crashing at some point. The door creaks as I stealthily try to make it to Midoryias bed without waking him. "Could you be any louder dork?" he yawns, and scratches his eyes. He looks like a cute little sleepy kitty that just woke from a little catnap. I roll my eyes, and flop on the bed. I'm not even tired, probably because I literally did nothing for class. What, I had to hide in a closet tied up? My mind quickly goes back to the words Bakugou had said while untying me. "That's funny, now its me saving you." that has been stuck in my mind all day. Did I really "save" him? I guess to him it was saving. "So I had a lot of time to think, and I do hate you. You intrigue me though, so answer my question or I'll blow you to bits." he warns, but in his sleepy voice which is ten times deeper then usual. I don't even know if he is actually awake or not. "Why? Why did you put out your flames?" his eyes are open wide now, and are inspecting every inch of my like I'm a new insect. My eyes start to avoid his, and I try to think of the best excuse to use. "I had lost my way fighting Midoriya, and I gained my pride back..." his growl cuts me off, and all I can do is stand my ground. When I say stand my ground I mean stayon the bed, and hope for the best. "THERE'S MORE TO IT THEN THAT AND YOU KNOW IT!" he screams jumping up into the air. He quickly starts to ace back and forth throughout the whole room. "Now tell the truth you bastard." he instantly stops looking up at me from where he stands. "I respect you a lot Bakugou. Especially your fighting spirit, and I didn't want to risk you losing it. I wanted you to win, I thought you deserved to win. If I used me flames that would risk you in losing, and I was afraid your spirit would be broken." I try to explain it to him calmly, but his reaction is not how its supposed to be. "Oh, so you had pity on me huh? Well Icy Hot bastard I don't need your pity, or respect. I'll beat you one day flames and all. You wont have to worry about my spirit because I'll be the one on top!" he yells as he slams the bathroom door. Geez, why does Bakugou have to be so difficult? I mean come on I am probably the nicest person to you, and you still hate me? This boy makes absolutely no sense at all. "Bakugou when you come back out were talking!" I yell hoping he could hear me. Knowing him he's probably doing something insane right now. "The fuck we are, I'm leaving I got places to be." he shoves the door open, and races out into the hallway. I let out a huge sigh as the door begins to shut on its own. Now where could he possibly be going? By the way his acting wherever it is it isn't going to be good. I go in the bathroom, and decide to take a quick shower. He'll probably be back by then, hopefully. As time goes by I finally get out, and peak out the door expecting to see an angry explosion boy. Of course you shouldn't get your hopes up for this exact reason. Now, for real where could he be for this long? Get dressed, and walk into the hall way hoping he would be hanging out around here. I should've known better then to think Bakugou would be simple. "Hey, have you seen Bakugou?" I ask Fumikage as he leans against a pillar on the wall. "I can't say that I have seen him, but that is rather peculiar seeing how he draws attention everywhere he goes." This is exactly true, which is the sad thing. Where could Bakugou really sneak off to? My mind races through every conversation we have had, and instantly a brilliant idea pops in my head. I race outside the academy into the school yard. I really don't even care about who all is seeing me because really who could beat me in a fight? I run as fast as I can dodging everyone who keeps trying to stop me. A million concerning looks are shot my way, but I completely push past them. I know where he is, he has to be here. I do a sharp turn as I start to slow down. Please dear God let him be here, or I literally did all of this for nothing. I am now at a walk, but I'm almost there anyway so its not that big of a deal. "I knew you would be here." I pause while stepping out into sight. This is the only place I could think of where he would come to relax. "You piss me off loser, and now you won't leave me be? I came out here just so there wouldn't be a fight." he snaps, but not an angry snap. It is more like a hurt snap, one that was forced, not wanted. "Just go away okay?" he mumbles, but I completely ignore it. Yeah, he may be here to calm down, but is this really the only place he feels comfort in? He really must still love Kirishima this much huh? "This isn't just a place to help you relax is it? It makes you happy doesn't it? Its full of good memories..." I have no idea what I'm saying right now. Its all just coming out like a jumbled mess that came out of nowhere. "Why do you care so much that I'm happy? I overheard your little sob story to Deku. You don't have a happy life either Bastard. Here's a tissue for your issue, and worry about yourself." he turns away from me, and looks toward the horizon. I guess he is waiting for the sunset like the good days. I try to be calm, but literally what he had said burned straight through me. He knows my back story? So he knows why I couldn't usemy flames, he knows what my mother means to me? How could someone have no sympathy for others? "Aw look you actually do have feelings." his mocking laugh echoes in my heart. This whole time, I thought he changed, but I was fully wrong. A heartless monster like him? I don't see how such a sweet boy like Kirishima could ever love someone like him. I turn away, and start to walk back the same way I came. "Wait Icy Hot come back." his hand touches my shoulder, and spins me around to face him. We are now face to face, and my heart feels like it has stopped. "I took things to far." he lets go, and I'm guessing this is his way of apologizing. He sits back down on a big pull of cement, and I take a seat right next to him. "The view of the sunset here is breath taking." he starts talking out loud as the first sight of pink appears. I never pictured Bakugou as the type to like scenery, but I guess you learn something new everyday. "You know I hate you right?" he lightly punches my arm with a little chuckle giving me mixed emotions. If he's joking it hasn't been very obvious. I laugh nervously as I sit how I normally would. I don't normally joke around, my whole life my father trained me. No games, no fun, just train to beat all might. Day in, and day out you could say. I was never allowed to play with my other siblings, so now I am who I am. A boy that seems serious 24/7 because I have no idea how to act. "You know when I become the #1 hero the first thing I'm going to do is kick you dads ass." his voice grew more serious, and I shrug it off lightly. "That's fine, just beat All might before me, and that would kill him more." I give a little smirk still watching as the sky turns pink. The sun is starting to set, and just the look on Bakugous face alone could make world peace. I've never seen anyone's eyes light up the way his is right now. Full of wonder, full of hopes, full of dreams. His smile is as wide as the ocean. If I could capture this ag this moment, believe me I would have a million copies. He isn't here right now, Bakugou is off in his own little happy world. Doing everything he could have ever wished of doing. The bright orange light of the win reflects off his skin as he sits amazed. This boy is probably the most gorgeous person I have ever laid eyes on. While he's focused on the sun I can't help but be distracted by him. Its not everyday you get to see a big smiling Bakugou. "Shows over, now we gotta sneak back in the dorm." he stands, and turns toward the way I came. I quickly stand up next to him, and follow as he leads. "Breath taking right?" he asks still walking forward toward the academy. "Definitely." I whisper. The flashback of what had just happened a few minutes ago plays through my mind like a movie. "You have no idea." I mumble again as we make our journey back to the dorm.