Better Off (Lil Peep)

Chapter 35: Unexpected

Samara's POV

My hearts thundering as I capture them onstage again, doing what they love. tonight, it's in Madrid. Gus circling the stage pouring his heart out, with HorseHead beside him. Two more songs and the show would be over. I exited the stage and hung back for a bit, waiting for the very finale of the show.
I was tired and anxious for no reason- mostly to get the hell out of here and to see Ally, who would be at the next show with us in Paris. Gus and I in Paris. My stomach did a little flip at the thought of it. I needed that kind of adventure in my life.

As Gus announced it was the last song, I started to come out onstage. He was playing Star Shopping last, of course. "I want to dedicate this song to my girlfriend- Samara, come out here baby." I was shocked for a moment and completely froze side stage. Did he really just announce to the world, in Madrid, that I was his girlfriend? Oh my god. Most of the crowd seemed to be cheering, and as to be expected some were booing. Jealous I guess.

I shuffled out onto the stage, feeling awkward as hell. Gus kissed me, in front of all of them, the whole crowd. I could feel myself blush under the pinky red lights and I was glad no one would notice it.

A slew of "Awwws" erupted from the crowd as he opened his mouth.

"This ones for you baby."

"Wait right here, I'll be back in the morning.." i found myself mouthing the words with him, snapping all of the best pictures I could anyways, as he sang to me. I adored this man, standing in front of me pouring his heart out. If anything, the guys knew it all now. I wasn't even sure what were until he said it out loud, in front of everyone.

As he started to wrap up the song, he pulled me close to him, looking right into my eyes. I couldn't believe after all this time- the drama with my ex, with Wicca, all of his exes, Layla included that I was standing here onstage with him, as his girlfriend.

When the show ended he kissed me, and waved to the fans in the crowd before exiting stage. I was shaking and trying to recover as I packed my camera and gear back into my bag.

"I fucking adore you, baby. I'm sorry I just had to tel the world...are you mad at me?" He gave me puppy dog eyes and I giggled as we kissed, deeply I might add. We were interrupted seconds later by Goth and HorseHead.

"Congrats lovebirds. I knew." Goth laughed. I hugged him.

"Thanks" I whispered. He hugged me back tight.

"Congrats bro!" Horse fist bumped Gus before hugging him tight too.

At least some people were supportive. I couldn't help but wonder where Wicca was and if he heard what Gus had said to me onstage.

I carried my stuff back to the bus alone, seeing as Gus got pulled aside by Coldy backstage.

When I entered, of course Wicca had to be the first face that I saw. He almost looked like he'd been standing there waiting for me to come in.

"Oh, hey." I mumbled, packing my gear safely away.

"Samara..." he whispered.

"Yeah?" I asked, turning around.

"Please... talk to me. Please."

"About what?" I fiddled with my camera and gear, pretending that I was busy.

"About us, Sami. Look at me." He touched my cheek and I looked him dead in the eyes.

"There is no us, anymore...you used me Wicca. All you wanted me for was to be some pretty little...thing on your arm."

"You meant so much more to me than that...please, can we talk?"

"We are talking I don't know what you want me to say." I stopped fidgeting.

"Say that you won't let this end. Please." He begged.

"Wicca that's not-" he cut me off by kissing me, and I immediately pulled away.

"No-" he pulled me back to him as I fought to get away.

Suddenly the door to the bus opened and of course, it had to be Gus.

"Samara what- oh my god, how could you do this to me? After what I just did for you...after all we talked about I-"

"Gus wait- he kissed me, I didn't want to..."

But he ran off before I could do anything. Wicca was wide eyed and silent.

"Thanks a ton." I yelled as the tears flooded in. I felt myself sinking to the floor.

"You're dating Peep?" He snapped.

"Yes, I am. Or at least, I was until you fucked it up."

I ran out the door, my heart thumping in my chest. Where could he have gone?

I called him, frantically but there was no answer. I headed back to the bus, in defeat.

Not even dating a day and I already fucked shit up. Wicca and I had been over so long why would he suddenly kiss me? The tears kept coming, as I crashed into Gus' bunk alone.

"Where's Gus?" Goth peeped his head down from the bunk above me.

"He ran out...he saw Wicca kiss me- he forced me, I didn't want to." I cried. Goth came down from his bunk and laid with me.

"I'm so sorry Samara. I'll text him. He just gets sensitive about this shit. He has to know Wicca forced you. .I believe it too. He's a jealous bitch."

Goth clicked away on his keyboard as my heart sank down further and further in my chest.

"Shit." Goth mumbled.

"What?" I asked frantic.

"Gus is in a hotel room. He took too much Xanax. We need to go."

My heart officially dropped, to a place unknown.  This was all my fault....