French Kisses

Chapitre 30

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                                                                              / FRENCH KISSES /

                                                                                           Alecia

"Excuse me," I asked a room boy passing by. "Can I ask where's the hotel bar?"

"Apologies, ma'am," the room boy sincerely said. "the hotel bar already closed just 15 minutes ago."

I sighed. I just had a drink from the club but I think I'll need a glass again. Perhaps, a bottle would be more helpful.

"Can I just please order a whiskey, please?"

"Of course, ma'am. From which room number do you stay in?"

"Uhm, I'll be waiting at the pool area."

"If you say so."

Minutes later, dumating ang order kong whiskey habang naghihintay at nakaupo lang sa pool lounge chair. Niyakap ko naman ang suot kong sweater dahil sa lamig ng simoy ng hangin ng alas-tres ng madaling araw. Hindi na ako nakapagbihis ng damit dahil tinatamad na ako. Dumeretso na agad ako dito para makapag-isa.

I poured three ice cubes and the whiskey and downed it in one go. Napahiga ako at natulala pagkatapos. Ang dami kong ininom ngayon pero pakiramdam ko kulang pa ang mga iyon para makalimutan ang mga gustong kong kalimutan.

Lalong lalo na ang nangyari kanina.

Sean made a confession. A confession that almost made me crush my heart and trust on him.

At first, I didn't know how to react. Tahimik lang ako at nagkunwaring tulog habang sinasabi niyang mahal niya raw ako. At noong college pa raw siya may lihim na pagtingin sa akin. I listened to all his revelations as I tried hard not to flinch, because if I did, he would never tell everything what kept his distance away from me. Now I know, kaya siya naging ganoon sa akin.

Mahal ako ni Sean. Mahal ako ng bestfriend ko.

At pagkatapos ng konpesyon niya, don lamang ako nagsalita. "Iuwi mo na ako." I said.

Gulat siyang malamang gising pala ako. Maybe he didn't really expect I'd be awake and sober kahit sinabi pa niyang aamin siya tulog man ako o hindi.

Then I just snapped on him. "Just drive me back to my hotel, Sean." I said coldly. 

I closed my eyes as I drank my fourth glass.

I remember the hint from his face the pain and the regret.

Hindi ko pa alam kung anong dapat kong maging reaksyon. I feel like I'm confused, shock, terrified, betrayed and hurt all at the same time. I can't process all of these. I need time. 

"You're alone and drunk."

Dali-dali akong napabangon sa aking pagkakahiga at agad kong naramdaman ang matinding hilo na nagpabalik naman sakin sa pagkakahiga. Damn, may tama na ako.

"and it's almost 4 in the morning."

Calvin's voice went nearer and I already he was already sitting next to my lounge chair. 

"You need to go back." Aniya.

"Bakit nandito ka rin?" I asked, pushing myself up to sit properly on the chair. Nahihilo na talaga ako. Nakakalahati na ako sa bottle ng whiskey.

"Needed some air. Can't sleep." Tinignan ko siya kahit medyo napupungay na ang mga mata ko. Nakatingin rin siya sa akin. Naalala kong wala pala siya kanina sa party. Bakit kaya? Eh ang hilig nito sa mga party.