[Load] or {Save}* (Gaster!Sans x Reader)

Chapter 18

POV: First Person

{Save point loaded*}

"My memories...I want them back. I think G loves me enough to not abandon me because I made a mistake... even if it was a really big one. I trust him to protect me." Laughing uncontrollably Chara's boyish laugh echoes endlessly inside my head making me grab my ears pressing them closed. G starts saying something, but I wince at the internal pain. "If your memories are what you want I'll give them to you, but know that I warned you. You'll soon realize your mistakes and I will be the only one who can relieve you of the pain you're soon to endure. See ya later (Y/n)" Sickening unbearable pain, horrible, horrible pain. My head rocked and swayed, pierced and pulsed making me fall into G. I was looking into his eye sockets smiling slightly at how he looks at me with concern. He cares about me...I knew he always did. Closing my eyes Memories flash rapidly, answering all the questions I couldn't answer, and filling in the holes in my ruptured relationship with Sans. Opening my eyes once again I'm met with G looking down at me in a panic. "(Y/n)!? Are you alright? I'm sorry for pressing you, just say you're alright." Nodding I sit up slowly feeling uneasy. "I'm fine...it's just I think I just got all my memories back." looking fearfully at G he looks back at me with a shocked expression, mouth agape. "Really?" he says in almost disbelief. Nodding slowly I fiddle with my hands. "What happened? Tell me what you know." Scooting a little away from G I take a deep breath. "I used my extractor on Frisk. I drained every ounce of determination she had so I can take her trait." Unable to look at him I could feel his anger beginning to boil up beside me. "Why." silence consumed the room as he spoke in a dead serious tone. "Why? Because I was being selfish. She had something that I wanted, needed. The pain became unbearable to the point where I felt helpless. Chara whispered the possibilities that could happen if I just had determination, but I refused until the day where I couldn't fight back anymore. And here we are." Tears slide down my cheeks as I lightly sobbed into my hands unable to look G in the eye. "What did you want?" Looking up with tears still falling I see G looking away from me with his head in his hands. "What?" I was confused by his question, what did he mean? "What did she have that you wanted? Determination?" Shaking my head I look back down at my feet. "I want you and your heart. She surrounds your thoughts every waking day while I had nothing, but are slowly fading friendship." I spoke softly and ashamedly, wanting to hide my face from his gaze. Quick without warning my wrist was snatched up high above my head making me look into G's dark empty sockets. "You manipulate me. YOU USED ME!" Shaking my head quickly no I tried to defuse the situation, but no matter how I tried he refused to hear it. Picking me high up in his magic he takes me out the room and downstairs where Sans and Frisk were talking. Both Sans and Frisk stood up alert looking unsure of what was going on. "(Y/n) just got her memories back...she told me everything." Dropping me onto the floor G kicked me closer to Sans. "She's all yours. I'm done with her." Sans looks down at me with disgust as I sob profusely. Gripping my shoulder Sans teleports us to a long hallway with pillars lining the side of the path, and light shining slightly through the windows. Sitting on the ground I continue to sob as Sans walks down the hall for a bit then stops. "Stand up." Looking up I see Sans standing a couple feet away from me. Standing up I look at Sans feeling very ashamed, my sins crawling down my back. In a tugging motion Sans summons my soul dragging forward until I was almost nose to non-existent nose with him. Holding it in his hands I shiver at his touch. "W-what're you doing?" giving a dry chuckle Sans continues to observe my soul. "Testing somethings out." before I can question him again I let out a blood curdling scream as he crushes my soul in his hands, shattering it. Darkness is all I see until two golden buttons float before me. 'Load or Reset?' the buttons read on the top, pulsating in the air. Placing my hand over the continue button I press down on it, becoming blind by the white light. Blinking a few times I'm re-met with the same hallway I was just in along with Sans now leaning on a pillar.

"Welcome back. Let's try something different this time."

{Saved*}

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A/n: Another chapter whooo! Hope you liked it! Things are starting to build up and I'm excited to continue the story. Thanks for reading! I love you all soo much <3 <3 <3

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