Kimberly ❤️
If I could rewind the clock, I definitely would. I don't know what happened for our marriage to completely turn left.
I want my baby back. And I'm talking about Jeremiah. I swear I can still hear his voice sometimes. Talking to me. Calling for me. Asking me to bring him back.
Trust me baby boy, if I could exchange my life for yours, I definitely would.
I sat at the kitchen counter silently bawling my eyes out. I want my life to be complete again. To feel like everything I've ever dreamed of wasn't a waste. But it's too late. It was all over.
I can't let this affect me anymore. I won't. I need to do something for myself. It's been a while since I've done anything for myself. But what am I going to do when I have 6 kids to take care of?
Well, a little spa day wouldn't hurt.
*****
I'm thinking more of a nude color. If not that then a dark gray. I brung Nicole with me for a Mommy daughter day. Right now we were getting Mani-Pedi's.
"Which color do you like?" I ask.
"Pink." She said, holding my hand.
I smile. Looking at the pink, it was more of a highlight pink. To match her golden honey skin tone, it went perfect.
"Okay." I say.
I take the highlight pink off the shelf, handing it to her.
"Thank you." She said, looking at it.
"You're welcome." I say.
I look back up at the colors.
"What color should Mommy get?" I ask, more to myself than to Nicole.
"Well, blue or white always did look good on you." A male voice says.
I sigh, debating on if I should turn around or not. I did anyway, just for the hell of it.
"Daddy!" Nicole exclaims, releasing my hand to run into Dak's open arms.
He smiled as he picked her up, kissing her cheek. He put her down, looking at me when done. Nicole grabbed my hand, smiling up at him.
"I thought I told you to stay away from me." I say.
"You said you, not my kids." He said.
"I'm pretty sure I said the kids too." I say.
"Listen, you can do as you please. But you're not going to stop me from seeing my kids." He said.
"How did you find us?" I say, ignoring his recent comment.
"Don't worry about it." He said.
"Actually I do. Because I need to know if it's necessary to file a restraining order against your ass." I say.
He shrugged.
"I need to talk to you though." He said.
I look around the nail salon, noticing that no one was watching.
Good.
"Nik, we're gonna have to do our nails another day. Looks like daddy has to get a few things off his chest." I say, glaring at him.
She nods. I put the nail polish back and walk out of the salon, Dak following suit.
"What do you want Dakota?" I ask.
"I want you back Kimberly." He said.
"That's not happening." I say.
"And why not?" He said.
"Because we're just not fit for each other anymore. I've moved on." I say.
"To who?" He asked.
"I never said I was dating anyone. I just said I've moved on. From you. From bullshit. Everything." I say.
"Well I haven't. I need you Kimberly. In case you haven't noticed, I've been playing like shit on the field." He said.
"That's not my fault Dak." I say.
"But I need you there to cheer me on when I've had a bad game. I need you there to reassure me that everything will get better." He said.
"I can't do that for you anymore. You had that and you blew it. All for some other woman. Now if you'll excuse me, you just ruined Mommy daughter day for us. I'd like to spend a little one on one time with my daughter." I say.
"Kimberly please? I'm sorry okay. What can I do to make up for what I've done? I want my life back." He said.
"You can start by leaving me alone. I have nothing more to say to you. Please, just stay away from us." I say.
"You know I can't do that." He said.
"Well you're gonna have to try. I don't even know why I'm still talking to you right now." I say.
"Because I'm the father of your kids. You can't push me away forever." He said.
"I sure can. Watch me." I say.
Before he could say anything else, I was walking away with Nicole.
We'll find something else to do.
*****
While the kids ran around the house, I was looking for 4 bedroom apartments in California. I couldn't deal with Dak anymore. It's almost like he was following us.
The ringing of my phone scared me. I sighed as I read the caller ID. It was just Odell.
K: Hello?
O: Bam bam!
K: Hey Delly, what's up?
O: Nothing much, just missing my cousin. What about you?
K: I'm good.
O: You sure? Ol' boy not bothering you no more?
K: I actually just ran into him a couple hours ago. I wanted to spend a little Mommy daughter time with Nik but he just popped up outta nowhere.
O: Oh damn.
K: I know. I'm like completely over it.
O: Want me to come beat him up?
K: *laughs* no. Besides, I think Zeke already beat you to it.
O: Damn.
K: *laughing*
O: Are you sure you're okay though? I heard about what Matt did.
K: Yeah I'm good. Just glad I was able to get out of the marriage.
O: As long as you're okay, that's all that matters to me. The kids as well. Which reminds me, when can I see my little cousins?
K: They're good. They're looking forward to coming to watch you play in action.
O: Well I'm glad you mentioned that, I have a few suite tickets for Sunday's game against the Bengals at MetLife. Would you guys like to come?
K: Of course! Anything to get out of Dallas for a while.
O: Awesome! I'll see you guys then. I'll text you the information regarding jets and all that. I got you. Just make sure you bring my little Cammy.
K: *chuckling* I will. She misses her cousin Delly.
O: Aww, I miss her little cry baby self too.
K: *laughing* Alright Dell, I'll talk to you later.
O: Aight, bye Bam bam.
K: Bye Delly.
I then hung up the phone. I miss my cousin so much. I'm glad he invited us to the game in New York. Now I can get away from dumb-dumb for a while.
After this getaway, we are moving.
