"I shouldn't have come" Jac sobbed and hurried out of the office
"Leaving? it's what you do best" Fletch called after her.
As Jac ran onto the ward blinded by her tears she came face to face with Frieda
"Hey come and sit in here for a moment, you can't walk through the hospital looking like that" Frieda said guiding her into the staff room
"Oh god" Jac said furiously wiping tears from her face "this is not me, it's like I've had a bloody personality transplant"
"What did he say?"
"I asked him if it was true, he asked why I was bothered. He said he was broken wondering if I was coming back"
"Doesn't that tell you something?"
Jac sighed heavily "it tells me that I've blown it. It tells me that I left it too long before telling him how I feel. It tells me I'm too late. It tells me that I'm arrogant enough to think that he would still be here wanting to talk to me about our feelings" she put her head in her hands
"How do you feel about him Jac?"
Jac regarded Petrenko and having no energy to hide it anymore she answered "I love him. I love him so much" then the tears came again
Freida laughed "ty dva neymovirni!"
"What? And what are you laughing at?" Jac snapped
"I said,you two are unbelievable. He loves you too Jac he told me but he's hurting after you left without a word. I mean what was he supposed to do?"
"I know, I know I've got no right to behave like a spurned lover. He doesn't owe me a thing but oh Jesus it hurts Frieda it feels like my heart has been ripped out"
"Jac you need to talk to him" Frieda said quietly
Jac snorted "unlikely, I can't leave myself exposed like that"
"Jac, he's seen you at your lowest after the shooting. He never left your side, never let you down no matter how much you pushed him away"
"But what about her"
"She is an Elastoplast on a gaping wound"
"I wish I could believe that"
"Just talk to him" Frieda said going back out onto the ward
