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I republished this because I wasn't happy with it and I hadn't decided what I was doing with the story line. Now I do so I rewrote this...........

Jin

I used to wake up early everyday. To the kitchen, to make breakfast for the rest of the group. I did all the cooking around here, and still do some of the time. And the cleaning. I love to sing, so I practiced it while I cooked. I sung quietly as to not wake everyone up.

I wanted to improve, get better and prove to everyone that I was good enough. That I deserved my place in Bangtan and that I am here for more that to be a mother to everyone else.

I may not seem it but I am quite self-conscious. I come across as very confident and vain but deep down I'm really not that at all. I'm shy and not confident at all in myself, especially when it comes to dancing. I know I'm not very good at it and I'm trying.

I keep practicing, along with Namjoon. He too isn't very confident in dancing and was told that he needs to improve too. We grew closer during our late night training. I used to be quiet and keep to myself but now I have come out of my shell more. If it wasn't for Namjoon then I would still be quiet, keep to myself and not speak up.

Now I tend to make jokes a lot. I think they are funny, although they are stupid dad jokes, I try to make them laugh. Sometimes they do, but they usually think I'm stupid, they sigh and my jokes and mock my laugh. It's funny I guess, a laugh, a mockery. I just laugh it off, unbothered by it.

I keep practicing, and practicing. My singing and my dancing. I need to, I still do, I'm not phenomenal, I'm far from it. I'm improving, slowly but surely I'm getting better. I'm proud of myself for that and I hope ARMY are too. I believe in myself that I can do it, I work hard for what I had, we all do. We improve as a team and we fight together. We are one team, we are our own person but we are in it together. If one person is upset then we tell each other and we cheer them up, because we are one team, fighting!

I wanted to be an actor, but here I am. I'm loving my time with the rest of Bangtan, we have a laugh and such a great time together. We stand by each other through everything. We get through our troubles and fly high together. We do it as a team but we can't do it without you, we can't do it without ARMY.

A/N: sorry this is late! I haven't had WIFI for ages so I couldn't update and I also didn't know what to write. I didn't really have any ideas for this chapter or where to continue the 'story'.
It's not really a story I guess, sorry 😕

I prefer writing 'meaningful' / 'sad' chapters than a full story full story with a long thought out plot. Please don't stop reading this though, of course you don't have to continue but I am trying to make this the best I can.

I stared writing another book. It is a proper story, or at least I plan it to be. 😂 I'm not publishing it yet though until I have a lot of chapters written and a thought out story line. I have written one chapter so far.