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Yoongi

I haven't spoken much about my depression. The fame gets too much sometimes and it overwhelms me. Jin hyung is really kind, so helpful, he understands.

Depression sucks. Sometimes I wish I wasn't Min Yoongi, that I was someone else, a normal person who wasn't an idol, or even just someone dead.

That one time. When I shut myself in a bathroom before the concert. I was scared, overwhelmed, overworked. I was stressed out with everything and everyone, I just wanted it to be over, just like that.

I was about to do it, but he stopped me. Just in time, before it was too late. Jin came for me, and saved me for making the worst decision of my life, the decision to end it.

I'm doing better now, we all are. My depression is still here but it's not as controlling. I can get past it. I need time alone, to think and relax, without it I think I wouldn't be able to cope, I don't think I would be here now with the rest of the members.

But that was how I used to be, before all of this. I used to be a lonely boy with no family to support me, only parents who thought I made the wrong choice, who thought I shouldn't be wasting my time with music.

My parents never used to believe in me. The thought I should grow up, get a well paying job, marry a beautiful woman, and be able to support a family. They didn't expect me to pursue a music career, singing rap and composing songs.

They never came to see me perform, why should they? They didn't want to watch their son 'make a fool of himself on stage'. So when I saw them, front row at one of our concerts, I was so happy. So pleased that they actually wanted to come and support me. I spotted them, amongst the crowd, and I broke down. I started crying in front of everyone, tears of happiness and I was so proud. Proud that they came and proud with myself. I had made it and they came, showed me that they cared and that they loved me, whatever path I choose to take.

Without you ARMY we wouldn't be where we are today, we wouldn't be here, improving as a group and achieving what we achieve. We work as a team, all seven members, but without our fans we would be nothing.

Thank you ARMY.

A/N: Short chapter again, sorry. I think I'm going to keep these chapters short but meaningful, so I can express how they feel without having to write thousands of words because I can't really come up with that much content on this subject lmao 😂

Bye for now 👋👋