That girl

The one who is sworn to love you

Have you ever just sat there thinking about how much of a screw up you are or how much you feel like a complete disappointment to everyone who loves you? No matter how hard you try to change or fix things everything still seems to be pinned against you? Like everything you do is for nothing.

It's a constant feeling that courses through my veins. A constant thought. Ever since I can remember I have felt this way. All because of one person. The one who is sworn to love you, care for you and protect you from the evils of the world. Only they are the evil of the world. The women who gave you life. That gave birth to you.

The one person who is supposed to always love you is the one that turned their back on me. The one person I never thought would turn their back on me did.

Try having the women who gave you life, wish they hadn't. That you're their greatest mistake. How do you handle that? How are you suppose to deal with it? How do you keep it from getting to you? Do you let it or do you brush it off?

Knowing the women who gave you life doesn't want you takes a major toll on you. Constantly thinking that no one wants you because she didn't. 

But then there's a light at the end of the dark tunnel. You can see it but your not quite there. so you run but the faster you run the further away it seems. Just as you are about to give up, you hear a voice telling you to keep going. To keep fighting that things will get better. So you do... You keep fighting. You keep running and finally you reach that light. Only that light is a person. A person who loves you like no one else has ever did before.

They make you ten times stronger then you ever thought you were. He loves you for the girl that you are. Flaws and all. He becomes your world and your strenght.