Ever feel like you screwed up beyond words could ever explain? Well that's how I feel now. You make one decision and everything can fall you make one small decision to make your life better and in an instant it All Falls Down. You lose your family in a blink of an eye I feel like you're losing everyone around you. But yet no matter how hard you try to earn everything back or get everyone back you just seem to lose more people no matter how hard you try to fight it. You just you can't help but think that maybe everything you were told was right that you weren't meant to be in this world that you were meant to to be gone and never missed. You try to fight your deepest thoughts but sometimes you just feel like they're taking over you like there's nothing you can do nothing you could say that could ever change exactly what you're feeling deep down inside you feel lost. You don't know what to do now. All you can do is hope for the best even though it'll never happen everything just seems to fall apart the harder you try to build your life up. Everything just keeps getting lost and you try to find it but you just can't there's nothing you can do you've lost it all but you try to keep your head up because the one thing that you love that's always there is keeping you happy or somewhat happy. But you can feel that even that slowly falling slowly disappearing. And you feel so useless no matter how hard you try you can't you can't fix what you did. You lost everything trying to make your life better. Was it really worth it? Was it worth losing your family over? Trying to start your life and make your life better was it really worth losing everything that you lost.? You ask yourself that question every day every day that goes by you try to make yourself not feel like complete crap but you still feel like it no matter how hard you try you just you feel useless you feel like you're a complete f****** and there's nothing you can do about it you're just in this world just for no reason at all. You lost everything and it's your fault and you can't fix it even though you try. The one person you love will always be there even though you feel like you're losing them.
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