Everything seems to be your fault. No matter what you do or say it all seems to be the wrong choices. Everyone tells you that it's all your fault. Just because you are the way you were meant to be. You really don't want to be that way, but you really can't stop yourself. All you can do is sit there staring at a blank sheet of paper, trying to figure out what to say. But nothing really comes to mind. You rip up the paper and throw the pen. You wanted so badly to confess you're true feelings but you are too afraid of hurting the ones you love. And the only person that loves you or at least claims too is the reason you feel so empty.
Emptiness is all your feeling inside. You feel alone, all because you can't control things that others can. You feel like just because you're alone in your own little world that you're alone in the real world. You feel unloved and unwanted. You feel just as horrible as you felt before all the so call happy times.
You feel like the walls are closing in. Like you have no escape. But that is how you always felt. Like you had no way out. So you had to sit there and suffer the mean words and actions of others. You have to take it. And act like you are all okay. When in reality you are dying inside.
Dying inside from the harsh words of others. Dying from feeling unwanted and unloved. Your whole world feels like a damn lie. Everyone tells you things will get better but all it seems to feel as if things just seem to get worse. That the harder you try the more screwed up things seem to get. No matter what you do or say nothing ever seems to change. It all seems to feel like a big lie.
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