That girl

Gone in a blink of an eye

Your mine is racing. You don't know what to do. You hear the news and your heart shatters. Everything around you seems to go in slow motion if not completely stops. Everyone asks you if you're okay, but everything seems to be blurred out. Nothing but the sound of your heart breaking.

You lean up against the wall unable to stand. You fall to the ground crying, unable to stop. There are a million questions running through your head. "Why?" was the main one. You continue to ask yourself that.

The love of your life, was about to be gone. Just like that in a blink of an eye. Everything you and him worked for, gone. And theres nothing you can do about it. The worse part is that everything that you guys once shared would never be the same. Your last kiss, your last talk, even the last thing you said to him. All that would be the last you ever share with him. When you had planned for your whole life to be with him.

As you sit there balling your eyes out, you think how you survived but yet he was the one about to be gone. You can barely breathe. You can't bare to sit there alone any longer. You bolt as far away from everyone else as possible.

You can't handle it anymore. Not being or having him in your life. You feel alone and you are. He was the only person that made/make you feel like you weren't alone. Now your alone.

Now the weight of everything is on your shoulders. The doctors find you, they say that the damage to his brain wasn't about to be fixed. That he only had a few minutes left and to say goodbye. Before he was gone forever.

They ask you if you want to go say goodbye. You don't want to see him like that, but you want him to be alone. You ball up all your feelings and go to his room.

You stop in the doorway. Just standing there staring at him, laying in the hospital bed hooked up to all those machines. Your heart shatters more. You wipe away your tears, trying to stay strong not for yourself but for him. You knew he needed to you to be strong.

You walk over to his bedside. You look at him as you sit down. The first thing out of your mouth is that you love him and always will. That no one will ever replace him. That you wouldn't be able to find someone that makes you feel the way he does.

You take his hand in yours, holding it up to your face. You can't control nor hold back your break down anymore. Finally you break down... again balling your eyes out. You know he only has a few seconds left, so you quickly wipe way the tears and lean up kissing him one last time as his heart beat stopped. He was gone and so was your happiness. You would never get your happy ending or your happy life. That was gone.

Few days go by and nothing gets better just seems to get worse. It just feels like nothing in your life would ever be the same without him in your life. Today is the day. The second worse day of your life. The day you have to put the love of your life in the ground. You stand there watching everyone speak about him and watch them cry.

It was your turn to speak. You either have to tell a funny story or share a memory of him that was one of your greatest memories of him. You know exactly what memory/ story of him. The day you first fell for him and your first kiss with him.

You begin telling the story, barely able to finish. You look around seeing everyone's faces covered in tears. As they lowered him into the ground you just stand there heart broken.

That was it. Your whole world came to a complete stop. Three more weeks go by, you visit his grave; everyday putting flowers on his grave missing him more and more each day. From there on you feel alone surround by family.