This heart break has killed me more than any other heart break has ever hurt before. I feel everything falling apart slowly but surely. I feel like Im lost in a dark world where now I no longer know who the fuck I am anymore. I dont know who I am without him. 5 years and 9 months manages to change a person and within a blink of an eye everythings changed. I can no longer look at myself in the mirror and think to myself that I'm okay. that I can make it throu this life no matter how hard shit can get. But now I just feel lost and alone. Something that was gone when you came back into the picture. And just as quick as you came into my life you left.
Only you left me heartbroken and alone and just feeling like im not worth it. That I'm not worth the space that I take up on this planet. Nothing feels the same anymore...Just seeing you alone breaks my heart. Anything that sounds close to his truck sends me into an anxiety attack and instantly makes me want to collapse to the ground and just curl up and just cry.
I cant hate him either no matter how hard I tri\y to hate him , I cant.... Because dispite everyhthing that has happened I still love him more than anything in this world... No matter what hes done to me that I will always love him and i think its because he was the first guy ive ever been madly in love. He was my first real relationship...
So somehow in the middle of this break up, I lost who I truly was...
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