The String, A Story Of Soulmates

Falling Apart

My legs ached, and I finally decided to walk back to campus. To people passing by in cars or other transportation, they might've thought I was intoxicated, and I was too drunk to drive home. Having that realization in my head, I felt embarrassed as I walked. Maybe they just wouldn't notice, or care.

I wondered if the others-- Nairi, Anahi, Sam, and even Kaylee-- worried where I was. Did Lukas tell them what happened? I knit my eyebrows as I thought, what if they thought we were together, out at some place? Would they tease me? That is if they didn't eavesdrop and didn't know what was going on...

I eventually reached campus around an hour later, my legs numb. I knocked on my dorm door. Anahi opened up the door, after a few seconds. My knees felt like they were going to crack, and my legs would fall apart.

"Where were you?", She asked.

"Taking a walk."

"Where?"

"Around."

She glared at me.

"We were starting to get worried.", Anahi said, after a few seconds of silence.

"I thought so.", I murmured.

I walked inside and sat on the couch. Sam, Kaylee, and Nairi sat on the couch. Nairi stared at the TV, while Sam stared at her phone. Sam looked up at me.

"What happened!?", She asked loudly.

"We had a fight.", I replied in a monotone voice.

"You and Lukas?"

"No dip, Sherlock.", I said.

Kaylee stared into my eyes, her eyebrows drawn low over her eyes. I felt uneasy as she scowled at me.

"I feel like we're falling apart. Me and Lukas.", I said, my monotone voice growing sorrowful, "A week ago, we were all happy. Lucy wasn't... And Lukas didn't act strangely. I...", I let my sentence trail off.

Anahi nodded.

"It's okay.", Nairi said, her voice full of sympathy, "We're all here for you."

Kaylee isn't, I wanted to say. At least, I thought she wasn't there for me. She also seemed kind of out of it since the morning.

"Okay.", I said.

I still didn't really believe it.

We sat there, watching TV. I didn't really pay attention to what was playing. I tuned out the sound and looked at my lap. I started to think about all of the things that had happened in the past week.

Sam glanced over at me.

"Are you okay?", She asked.

I nodded slowly.

She stared for a few seconds, squinted her eyes, and turned back to the T.V.

I stood up and walked to my room. As I entered through the doorway, I realized that I hadn't slept in my room for so long. I either hadn't slept at all or slept on the floor in the living room.

I walked to my dresser drawer, that had a mirror attached to it. There were pictures fastened to the frame of the mirror. A picture of me, Kaylee, Anahi, and Nairi, that was taken around two months ago, before all of this. A picture of me, Anahi, and Harold, taken two years ago. We went to a water park. A picture of my whole group of friends.

My eyes focused on a picture taken during 5th grade. So long ago. My whole 5th-grade class. I saw in the crowd, me, Kaylee, Anahi, Nairi, and Harold. I smiled at the picture. Then, I didn't have much to worry about. Now, so much was wrong, so much went wrong, so much would go wrong. So many things had happened to me.

I sat down on my bed. I stared out the window, which was to the left of me. I closed my eyes and sighed.

I wished it could all just go away. No more Lukas, no more secrets, no more emptiness.

I laid down on my bed, on my side. I stared at my pale blue walls. I felt my eyes start to burn and sting again as my eyes focused on my string, swaying in the non-existent wind. I had forgotten it was there. I had forgotten that strings existed. I had forgotten that Lukas and I were 'destiny'. Were we really destiny?

I didn't try and hide my tears. I let them slide down my face, down my cheeks, and onto my bed sheets. I started to shake a little bit, with tears, and with laughter. I had no idea why I was laughing. Maybe it would help me think that this was all a joke.

It wasn't a joke. It would never be a joke.

We were falling apart.

I was too.