Destined

54

Seeing the look on Jayon's face after I had revealed to him about Ambers current situation was dreadful. I should have told him before we even got out the car, I should have been the responsible one to say Amber couldn't get on any rides. She was hard headed, she was stubborn. I knew this but I still continued to let her do what she wanted. It was clear that she didn't need a baby, not now at-least. She was behaving in a horrible way knowing she had a child inside of her. It was wrong for me to sit around and act like I was clueless about her condition when I knew better than anyone that she shouldn't have been doing what she had been doing.

"We have to find her," he told me. "How many months is she?"

"Like 1, at the most. God, I forgot," I say trying to keep up with my thoughts.

"What the hell is wrong with her?" Jayon asked me. "Why didn't she say she was pregnant?"

"Jayon she-"

"No Dj! I'm tired of you trying to protect her, I'm tired of you covering her tracks after everything she does. Don't you realize she puts you in a bad position when she makes stupid ass decisions?" He cuts me off, turning around to walk away. He looks from left to right in search of Amber.

"We've been friends for years! She was raped Jayon! Or are you forgetting about that?"

"Don't bring that up, she had a decision to get rid of the baby in that hospital, and now here she is with one! Doesn't she know having a baby at this age can fuck your whole life up?"

"How would you fucking know?" I yell at him in anger, even though I knew he was telling the truth. She was 17 and not even out of high school, it was terrible.

"That's not the point Dj," his voice lowers, his back was still turnt to me while he walked away.

People were staring at us the more we walked and talked aggressively through the carnival. I didn't care though, he didn't need to be talking about Amber that way and especially while she wasn't around.

"No I think it is the point. She wanted the baby she can handle it, just because every other teenager might not be able to handle a baby doesn't mean she can't," I say, choking on my words. I was lying, all for Amber. Deep down I knew she couldn't handle this child, but I would never say that out loud.

"What the fuck ever," Jayon says, he was done listening to me talk. "There they go," he stops midway, holding his arm out when I stopped in the back of him.

Amber had had cotton candy in one hand and a hotdog in the other. Her and Vincent had been standing by a ride, but they weren't in line. They had just been laughing and talking. I could tell she was having a genuine time and I wasn't about to let Jayon ruin it.

"Jayon wait," I yank his arm back. "She's fine, she's okay. She knew not to get on a ride. Please don't go over there and make a scene, don't even let her know that you know," I told him, watching him stare at them hopelessly.

"My cousin needs to know what he's getting himself into Dj," he said.

"He will, please just don't tell him now," I begged.

"Dj?" I hear Amber's voice call out to me, her and Vincent had spotted us from afar. "What are you two doing?"

"Ayo Jay!" Vincent yelled to Jayon, who still looked irritated.

"We were just walking around, looking for a ride, right Jayon?" I pull shirt a bit while he looks down at me, shaking his head.

"Uh, yeah," he agrees. I knew he didn't want too though. Vincent was his blood, and I knew he was close to him. He had to keep something from him just because of me, and I hated that, but I also respected him for doing so.

"Oh, you guys having fun?" Amber asks, taking a bite from her cotton candy.

"Somewhat," I yell back to her, showing a fake smile.

"Look, were not gonna stand here and yell at them from over here, now we're either walking away or going over there," Jayon said to me.

"We'll catch up with them later," I told him, guiding him into another direction of the carnival.

"See you guys later?" Vincent shouts, and I nod, Jayon ignored him though.

"Jayon," I say, looking up at him once more. "Are you okay?"

"No Dj. I have to keep some shit from my cousin just because of how much I love you," he says, his voice was deep and low.

"You..you what?" I ask him, he had caught me off guard with his words. I never would have thought he would have said that to me, at least not anytime soon, especially in the heap of a situation like this one. He was unpredictable, and I loved that about him. I had always wondered what it would sound like to hear him say that even though the way he said it was upsetting.

"I love you Dj, I've loved you since the first time we kissed on your doorstep. I've been trying to express it in different ways but I've also been wanting to say it,"

A feeling of vibrance took over my stomach, it felt as if butterflies had been eating at my insides from the way Jayon's words made me feel. I was so happy on the inside I could have exploded.

"I love you Jayon," I say, shedding a tear. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pushed my lips into his. He had his hands gripped around my waist and the longer we kissed the deeper it felt. This was the first time I had felt a true connection to him, the first time I realized that I loved him more than I thought I did and I never wanted this moment to end.

The first real intimate moment I had with him had been in the public area of children and adults; in a carnival.

And I didn't regret it one bit.