the girl in the club • jack gilinsky

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jack's pov

i had arrived back home in omaha not  too long ago, i was sitting in my childhood bedroom. not doing much, i was just lying on my bed, checking my phone every two seconds, just in case bella texted me. i had broken it off with madison just a little over a week ago, i mean she broke it off with me. she actually told me to chase bella, she knew how much she meant to me, and so i did, but she hasn't even read a single one of my messages. my sisters and parents were disappointed in my but they comforted me nonetheless, i loved them, almost as much as i loved bella.

"jack, we are going to your aunts house, come on!" my mom called out from downstairs, i sighed or inwardly groaned. i didn't want to be anywhere right now but i knew i need to get over bella somehow. i rush downstairs and got into the car. johnson has been texting me, sammy too, same with derek and nate, they were having a house party tonight with their girlfriends and girlfriends friends. meaning bella and maybe she plussed one that josh guy. he was you typical college douche, i did not see what she saw in him. 

"jacky, don't worry baby bro she will come around" molly tried to comfort me, making me sadder. i couldn't forgive myself for what i had done to her. and not to my surprise my aunts, uncles and cousins kept asking to meet the girl my family have been raving about, yes bella not madison, but bella. my sisters tried to steer those conversations away, but i told them the truth about what happened, some were shock, some were judgemental, some gave me a look of sympathy. everything i didn't want, i excused myself and went outside for some air. 

i looked at my messages that i had sent to bella, nothing has changed apart from the fact she read them. wait she read them! omg she actually read them, but no surprise no reply. i mean i couldn't be happier that she read them. i decided to send her one right now.

baby: 

i know you hate me, i hate me too. but i am here at home, well omaha where i grew up but i want nothing more than to be by your side. i am currently at my aunts house, looks like my family love you, they have been telling my aunts and uncles about you, because they kept asking about you, i wanted to lie that you were busy and couldn't make it, but i knew i have already done you wrong enough times. so i told them the truth about how i fucked up twice. they gave me looks of shock, judgement and sympathy, i didn't care what they thought about me, it didn't change the fact you are still in the arms of that other guy and not in my arms. i guess you are sick of me texting you... so this will be my last one. bye, jack, love you forever baby. xx

read 8:30pm

my heart skipped a beat, she read it. but still no reply. i sighed to myself going back inside to join my family. we were there for another couple of hours before leaving, i said my goodbyes and bolted for the car, i just wanted to go home and lie in my bed and cry. i, jack finnegan gilinsky, has officially lost bella sparks.