the girl in the club • jack gilinsky

8.0

jack's pov
the last thing i saw was bella's tear stained face rushing out the reception hall with her husband in toll. i was clueless to what was going on, i offer her a sad smile but she ignored me. i mean jack what can you expect, you shunned her from your life. i make my way over to johnson and sammy, who had guilty looks on their faces. what did they do.

"why did bel rush out of her own reception crying" i ask rudely, if they made her cry i wouldn't even know what i would do. "we fucked up, we told her you still loved her that you love her so much you are happy that she's happy" johnson mumbled and my eyebrows furrowed and fists begin to form beside me. sammy continued, "then she told us that you couldn't care less if she left los angeles, and that she cannot wait to leave." and my heart drops. i can't deny i didn't tell her i wouldn't care if she left, because i would care. i mean i wouldn't know what i would do if she wasn't here anymore. but she was crying at the thought of my words. i needed to apologise to her before she leaves for paris. without another word i dial her number. but of course it went straight to voice mail and so i resorted to messaging her.

im on my way! i saw you crying and we need to talk

pls answer my call

i need to know you are ok

i'm fine jack. benji has got me. pls don't come to my house.

i need to see you before you leave, i need to say something. please

fine. 5 minutes that's it

i left the venue almost immediately. getting into an uber to bella's apartment. it felt like i was doing something before my very last breath. but that's what it felt like to lose someone you love, someone that is no longer available. she's married. i wasn't going to be the guy who makes the wife choose between her husband and i, well i did but she wasn't married yet. i was so caught up in my thoughts that i had already arrived at her apartment complex. my hands become clammy, i was that nervous. i walk up to her apartment and knock on the door, it didn't take long for a beautiful girl to open up. but this time she was wearing her wedding dress with mascara stains running down her face. how could i do this to someone this good. jack you fuck up.

"hey" i mumble, she sniffs

"five minutes go"

i sigh, "i just came to say sorry for everything i put you through, the lack of trust i had in our relationship. i need to tell you those words i said about not caring if you left were all lies to cover up for my emotions. i would obviously care if you left and never came back, but if moving will make you happy then i won't do anything to stop it. i never realised what i have lost till you left me and before i could fix all my fuck ups, you were engaged and i still never stopped loving you any less and now you are married. so you deserve this apology, i am sorry"

"is that all?" she asks crying, wiping her tears away.

"yes, i am truly sorry for all the shit i out you through"

"i will forgive you eventually, just give me time. thank you for your apology, but i really need to pack, we leave in two days, goodbye jack" she says before closing the door in my face before i could say goodbye.

i sigh as i quickly called for another uber, serif as it took longer than anticipated. i wish we could turn back the time. where the emotions of happiness weren't so foreign to me. i will always love bella. and i hope benji treats her right and doesn't break her heart like i did.