I'm Married To Pain

Chapter 12

The doors flew open but I didn't dare to open my eyes. My million-dollar worth wedding gown caught the rose scented wind that blew from this holy place.

Slowly, I opened my eyes. Though the church is full of people unfamiliar to me, except for a few, I can only see one person. Just like any other girls, I have my wedding day dreams and that guy from the other end of the aisle gave me a kind of wedding that's beyond what I am dreaming of.

My nervousness escaped my heart when he turned to me and smiled. I smiled in return though I know it's impossible for him to see because of my veil. But as I stepped forward, he turned his back at me.

That made me think, am I walking in the right aisle?

But I walked anyway. I heard some greetings and compliments as I walked, but had to stop when I heard that one voice. Jared looked at me, nervous.

"May I walk my princess to his prince?" I turned to see the guy. His hair slowly turning gray because of his age. But his face is the same. Those ash gray eyes that failed to hide his pain, I knew them.

"King Carlson, please... Don't give me those eyes!" I laughed at him. I missed my dad so much that I hugged him in the middle of the aisle before holding on to his arms and continued to walk.

*** Tyler's POV

I took a wine and escaped the gathering. We're in the same resort where those lovebirds met. And yes. We traveled all the way from the church to here.

I settled myself on a bench, facing the waters, under a tree that's filled with shitty lights.

Wedding huh? Too fancy, too expensive, too busy... and for a night? Maybe it'll be very memorable for them, but I don't think it'll be memorable for me.

What am I talking about? I'm talking about my wedding.

I have been engaged with Cassidy Hesse just a year ago. She has a great crush on me. Because of her parents' connection with my Dad, she got me. I never really wanted to hurt her, but I don't love her. I mean, if only there's an easier way out of this. Even Cley, that stupid jerk, can't think of any.

That's the reason why I can't date Gina or even touch her when I badly wanted to.

"Alone?" Her soft voice came.

Shit.

Of course she'll be here. "Thinking of our wedding day?" She sat beside me.

I didn't answer.

She's pretty, not really that fancy girl. She's actually simpler than Gina. Her voice is so soft, even her personality is very soft. This is why she is very vulnerable to me. I can't shatter her world to pieces. But I can't love her despite her kindness. She's making it harder for me to leave her.

"Why do you want it so much?" I sighed at what I said, immediately regretted. I didn't want to be rude.

She just smiled. "Let's reverse the question. Why would I not want it?"

That shut me up. To avoid having to answer, I got up to walk away. That's when I saw Gina standing not so far from us, looking at me straight. She managed to smile before walking back to the party.

"You know, I can handle your cold feelings towards me. But you better not be seeing someone else. You can guess what happens." Then she walked away.

Ugh! Fuck my life!

*** Ashley

"Too bad, the honeymoon is postponed." Jared joked while swaying me away on the dance floor.

I gave him a soft slap on the arm. "You seriously have to stop doing that."

"It's not like it hurts." Then we both laughed.

My whole world came crashing at Jared's eyes. His handsome face, his perfume, everything. I offer him myself. And there's no going back. No regrets. I just want to be with him. And I know he feels the same.

"I vow not to doubt about your feelings for me. I vow not to leave your side in any reason. I vow to commit to those vows." Then I gave him a smile.

He smiled back to me, more of like smirking. "Okay then. I vow..." He thought for a moment. "... to spoil you with every Gucci or Prada or what have you." I laughed at that. He knew I wasn't that type. I can be happy with just Double Dutch ice cream. Oh. That made me crave for it. "I vow to give every single thing you want. Though my time... I don't know about that. My father always lacks that that's why I can't promise you. But I do promise to lessen my hang outs with those devils."

He pointed at Jcee, Cley and Tyler by just using his eyes, making me laugh again. He laughed with me when Cley noticed us looking. He raised his glass for us before looking away.

"Nah. I really don't mind them." I told Jared.

"Well, you can say that now, but I bet you don't like your husband to come home soooo drunk..." I laughed again. Now I think letting him hang with them like the usual will be a very bad idea. "... with a crashed car."

And my world stopped.

I suddenly heard sirens and shattered glasses in my head. I know he's just joking, but not like this. My eyes looked at anywhere but him.

"What's wrong? Did I... say somethi--"

"No. I'm just... just tired. Preggy mood swings, perhaps." I lied.

"Oh. Should we just..." He looked at me like he's trying to find out whether I'm lying or not. "Let's take a rest."

We dismissed ourselves and let our visitors enjoy the party after personally thanking them for coming.

Jared took me in an island nearby by speedboat, which he drove so careful that it made me want to call it slow boat. He said his father borrowed the island a bit for our honeymoon from his friend.

It's a small island, isolated. Then there's a tent like few steps from the water. It's covered by a white sheer curtain and just pure white cloths. Inside is a bed covered with red rose petals and some dim lanterns around. The wind was making the curtains sway so much, giving us a peek to the waters.

"Are we alone here?" I asked Jared before sitting at the edge of the bed.

He gave me a stupid look. "You really want me to call the crowd to join us? They're not so far from us." He said sarcastically so I just rolled my eyes at him. "Wait and I'll take the dress that Gina gave." He went out the tent to the speed boat.

Gina, by the way, looked so fantastic with her gown awhile ago. Though it's not really far from the outfits of the other girls who joined me in my entourage, she's a little bit more outstanding.

"Here. I'll just go and get us some warmth." I nodded and looked at the dress he gave me.

Gina better not give me a sexy number or I'll sleep with this gown on.

I picked it up to see. Well, it's a sleeveless white fit and flare dress that is so soft. Good for both sleeping and partying. It's five inches above my knee. That's a relief.

I gave my full force to take my gown off me and undo my hair. I just ran my fingers through it to get my normal long, wavy hair back. I think it's fine to walk bare feet since the sand is as pure as iodized salt.

I went out to look for Jared. And there he is, taking his suit off, changing into his beach shorts and displaying to my eyes his stony shoulders and chest. Don't forget about that abs. It made my eyes want to rip itself out.