Poems,Pictures, and Feelings

Hmmm

Why?
I get feelings for someone
But it isn't constant
What I mean is
With previous people
I had the constant feeling of wanting them
Wanting their embrace and warmth
But now
After he broke my heart
Its been different
I've felt different
He changed me
Some are good and bad
I don't know why
But now
I feel things for A LOT of people
I really can't trust my feelings
And I don't wanna play along
But the voice inside me head
Always tells me to go on
To keep doing what I do
I'm way too easy
And I know why
I'm not ashamed
Or afraid
But I'm desperate
Desperate for someone
Someone to hold me
Someone to kiss me
Someone to call me perfect and amazing
Someone to make me feel like I'm everything
Someone to love me
I really miss what I had
And I will never be able to let it go
Cause I doubt I'll ever find someone else
And I know that's what I said before
But that was a quick relationship
A relationship with someone that just wants a title
A reputation that they care about
More than anything
I miss what we had not him
I miss everything
Now I look at myself
And I can't help but say
"You've done a lot, you've went through too much, but you will forever be loved. You're friends and family.
Don't need anyone else. You are beautiful. No one can say otherwise. If they try, they got an army waiting for them."
I look at myself and wonder why is it now, that I look myself in the mirror and have a very high self esteem?
Why now?
I can properly think and say right things
I wish to stay like this for a long time
I want to
I really do like feeling this way
But yet again
I do feel lonely and tired
I want someone to kiss me
Someone to cuddle with
And someone to truly love me
And will stay for a long time.
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