Seeing you for the first time
I expected to be disappointed
Yet when I looked at you
I just smiled and started talking
Feeling nervous and yet excited
My mind stopped thinking
Everything is just suspended in air
All the thoughts whizzing past
It all went quiet
And all I can focus on is your voice
How you laugh and smile and look at me
The way your eyes crinkle at the edges
And sparkle like a twinkling star
Your laugh is contagious
And I can listen to you talk all day long and never tire of it
For the first time, I know what "in the moment" feels
It feels like nothing else in the world matters
Like the only thing is what's happening now
Like watching a sunrise, so breathtaking and exhilarating
Laughing came naturally when before it was forced
All inhibitions, the shyness, gone
Like a chain that was holding me back has disappeared
Leaving me free to feel what I'm feeling right now
A feeling so foreign and yet so right
The feel of you beside me, just waiting for my arms to hold you tight
Trying to hold back the urge to do so
Yet loving the feeling of you so close
Can't help but loop my arm around yours
Not caring if anyone dares to judge
My head held high and proud
I walk with you arm and arm
Smiling like there's nothing wrong with the world
For a small sliver of time no worries exist
Leaning against you, wanting to kiss you so bad
Wondering how soft those lips might be
When pressed against my hungry ones
Finally allowed to hug you tight
I cherish the moment with closed eyes and a smile
Suddenly feeling at peace and tired
At last, I am free to rest my exhausted heart
Getting recharged with a moment's bright spark
Can't help but feel overly joyous
Not really knowing why I'm like this
But letting it happen all the same
Holding your hand, it felt so surreal
Your roughness against my softness
Your hand that seems to have experienced too much
Or done too much
The hand of a person that does so much for others
It felt natural, for some reason
It felt right, for some reason
I wanted everyone to see us
I wanted everyone to know
And yet... I'm scared
I'm scared of falling
I'm scared of crashing
I'm scared of not being caught when I fell
I'm scared of getting hurt
I'm scared of trusting again
I'm scared of disappointment
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Poems By A Lonely Cloud
PoetryJust poems. For my project. At least at first. Now its poems, an outlet for my thoughts and feelings at the current time. Thought its utterly confusing, I understand what im writing and I see myself grow through this. How I mature. Although im still...
