Poems By A Lonely Cloud

drunk

As the sun rises and banishes yesterday's dreams
I lie still on my bed thinking of your smile
Thinking of your laugh
Thinking of how you held my hand
Thinking of how you comforted me
Thinking of how you calmed me
How you made me happy
And it filled me with sadness
And regret
And pain
And betrayal
It took me back to memories
Of things I don't want to remember
But I will never, ever forget
I thought of your drunk words
I thought of your broken promise
I remember myself shouting
Yelling at you to go home
I remember myself asking
Pleading, why you did you did
I remember you slurring
And saying how dizzy you are
I remember thinking you're not a lightweight
So if you're drunk, that means you've had a lot
And I was mad
I was mad and worried
And I wanted to hang up the phone
I remember regretting
Regretting why I even thought to call
And I cursed at the world
'Cause I felt that mine was crumbling down
As your friends laughed at your drunkenness
And made fun of my worried thoughts
I hated the universe at that moment
My life felt like a cosmic joke
I asked it, "Why now?
Why now when I liked him so much?
Why now when you knew this would break my heart?
Why now, after all the promises made?
Why now, after all the talk we've had?"
I felt myself then
Disappointed and empty at the same time
I was confused and angry
I wanted to leave you behind
But I was worried sick and I wanted to know if you're okay
So instead of hanging up the phone
I tried to ask you about what you've done
But you were too drunk
And I could hear your friends laugh at the background
I was cursing so much and you asked
"Are you mad at me?"
And I said, "No, I'm not. I'm just disappointed at you."
And I the last I heard was your friends telling me
That they'll take you home
Before the line went dead
I called you again but phone has already died
And in that instant I also felt a part of me die
And I called a friend and started crying
I can't seem to stop for a while
Although incomprehensible
My friend understood what I said And the only thing he said to me was
"Shhh, stop crying. Calm yourself down please
Take deep breaths and drink water
You'll feel fine, my dear
I know that you feel horrible
But all will be well in time
Just trust that everything will settle
And you will be just fine."