A whisper of my heart

I think I'm crazy

i just need
the world to stop spinning
the time to stop existing
and me to start breathing
even just for a while, for now
i need everything to slow down

this is too much
and I'm late mom
i'm two steps behind all of this
i'm falling apart
i wanna stop
i need to stop..
the tears from falling
but nothing is helping

i'm on the road that has no stay
i'm on a really long way
that seems to hurt way much
than I thought but anyway
i need to stop!
to wait a second and take a breath

but
i'm late
for everything that's waiting for me ahead.
i can't get out of my head
this is killing me mother
i'll take pills and whatever
to feel better
cause now
i feel more hopeless
than ever

- this is what I do instead of sleeping - realizing that I'm getting sick and I really really need to slow down