A whisper of my heart

Am I real ?

You have to search very deep in yourself
You have to start from the bottom if you want to rebuild something as important as your mental health

I can't tell you how
I can't promise you it will be easy
I don't know if you are doing it right
I have no idea
I'm as lost as you are
But I wanna try

I wanna find peace again
But every morning it's getting harder..
I know

I'm nobody searching in darkness
I'm a demon
I'm a ghost
I can't see and I can't hear
I'm scared the most

Is the love and the faith still running in my vein ?
I don't know

Sometimes I can't even get the air to my lungs no more
I can't hear the music no more
I just keep biting my hand
So there's another pain
I can't feel

Am I real?