A whisper of my heart

I hate you

i always smiled when i wanted to 
i always cried when my heart told me to 
but nobody could see 
and we both know, it was bad
that you hadn't done that
 
but you did 
and now
there's no way to take it back

sometimes i look at the little girl
on the photos, smiling
without knowing 
that the world she lives in
isn't always fair
that not everybody
would truly care 

some people know about it 
yeah you may be scared 

Because i spent a lot of time
wondering what if
only i would have a chance 
to tell something, not be voiceless
and i just didn't have to be alone
in the times full of mess

but i didn't 
and now 
there's no way to take it back

those two sides are fighting in me
every time i see your face 
the way you look at me
like nothing ever happened
but in the first place
this will never be okay 
i just can't put it away
and you know it
so let's pretend
we are friends
and nothing like that happened