Cross My Heart I'm Dead

Chapter 41 (RE-DONE)

***** Ashton's POV*****

I didn't retaliate, I might be able to put up a good fight but I know I'm no match for them. Him and Derek, they both had a history in fighting and that's not something I want to experience again but he didn't have to be so damn rude! What's gotten into him? I took him as a calm and sensible guy, a boring nerd really. His accusations are wrong. I did care for her, I still do. I'm just not the best at showing it, I don't even think I'm capable of showing any kind of affection. The room was silent after he left, no one expected him to act this way, I mean, who would? I don't even think I've seen Derek start a fight for no particular reason. Even without that scene, I know something isn't rght... When Ben told us to forget about what we saw, I didn't see any grief or sadness from Allie's death. They all seemed fine and now Astrid shows up sand knows all these guys. She looks familiar too. I just can't understand why. 

"I should probably get going now," Blake said awkwardly, Andy and River nodded as they too left the room.

"Do you guys mind going some place else? Sorry, I really want to get to bed," Otilia asked us sweetly and we all nodded and left. For some reason we were all heading towards Astrid's room. I was the last one to step in her room and so I closed the door behind me. Everyone just sat on the ground apart from Derek who took it upon himself to lie down on her bed but she didn't seem to mind. Everyone was still silent after what had happened. 

"Why don't we play a game?" Astrid suggested but we all just stared at her, on the inside I found it amusing. She appeared to be stubborn and childish, its cute. 

"Really Astrid, really?" Derek asked her in disbelief and she pouted.

"It'll be fun! We could play truth or dare, or spin the bottle, or never have I ever or-"

"Truth or dare isn't actually that bad and there is evident proof that this game brings people closer together as they are able to discuss the truth and have fun within a group or circle of people that they are comfortable with as well as it being a way to pass time and to get passed the obvious awkwardness that is in the air around us," Rick started rambling and I rolled my eyes. God, how much I hated that kid. He was so fucking annoying and sometimes he really just needs to shut the fuck up.

"I'm up for it," I say, not really caring and the others nodded. Derek reached to get something from the floor and he came back placing a bottle in the middle of the odd circle that we were sat in. "You start, Derek." He looked at me with a strange and judging look but I ignored it. 

He spun the bottle and it landed on Rick.

"Truth or dare, 4 eyes?" He asked him, leaning back on the bed.

"I don't wear or even own glasses therefore the fact that you are calling me '4 eyes' is invalid. However we shall skip past that and I am going to go with what is portrayed as the more cowardly option however it takes more emotional and mental strentgh to open up to people you do not even know. Truth," Rick said, staring at the bottle. Do you see why he annoyes me? 

"Yeah, whatever man. Are you a virgin?" All eyes were on Rick as he blushed bright red and nodded. Can't say I'm surprised. He talks way too much for his own good. He span the bottle and it landed on me. Well this will be boring.

"Dare," I said before I could give him a chance to ramble about my choices. He thought for a while and started to ponder. Can't blame him though, I've done pretty much every dare imaginable. He grinned and looked towards Derek. Oh fuck-

"Be Derek's slave for the next two days," he said and Derek looked at me with a smirk. I swear to fucking god will kill this kid.

"Fine," I span the bottle and it landed on Astrid. I looked up to her and caught a glimpse of something, shock maybe? "Truth or Dare?" I asked her calmly and she looked up to me and then back at the bottle.

"Um... Truth," she said quietly, I guess her hyperness has died down. What could I ask her? I don't know her at all, this is actually the first time I've been around her for longer than 5 minutes.

"Have you ever kissed a girl?" I asked going for the boring and basic question that everyone asks.

"Yes," she answered with no hesitation and then span the bottle, taking no notice of everyone's surprised faces. Derek looked at her questioningly and she leant to whisper something in his ear, a name I'm guessing, he burst out laughing and Astrid slapped him lightly. "She was actually a good kisser, not that you'd know anything about that." 

Burrrrrrrrrrrrrn.

"Truth or dare Derek?" She asked and I had only just realised that the bottle had landed on him.

"Dare," he said and Astrid immediately grinned and without having to think of anything she leaned closer to him and whispered the dare into his ear. "What the fuck? I'm not doing that!"

"The man who has never turned down a dare has finally fallen, the legend has-"

"Shut the fuck up and I'll do it," he glared at her. This must be good, he looks so pissed. "Stop looking so smug, twat. Go get me a beer from Xander." I was about to object but Rick sent me a look and I sighed. Stupid twit. Wait, why am I even playing this? Its stupid, childish and the only person I actually like is Kyle and he hasn't said a word. I got up reluctantly and left the room, going downstairs to find that Xander and Ben were wrestling on the ground. I walked past them and grabbed to beers from the fridge before returning to go back upstairs.

"What are you guys doing up there?" Xander asked me and I shrugged.

"Playing truth or dare, you two should join us," I told them before making my way up back to Astrid's room. I handed Derek his beer and opened mine but when I looked up he had almost finished the whole thing. He was standing up and glaring at Astrid. 

"I fucking hate you so much right now" he growled through gritted teeth but she only grinned. Xander walked through the door moments later and sat down near where Kyle was sitting. Derek looked towards the door and sighed, downing the rest of his beer. Ben came in through the door and Derek walked towards him, he whispered something in his ear and then started to kiss him I looked away as the others laughed and cheered them on. I'm guessing he told him it was a dare and that Astrid set a time limit but mostly everyone was on their phone and taking pictures or videos of the two. That was a good dare I must admit. They pulled away and sat down silently. "If this gets out I will murder all of you," he threatened but Xander, Ben and Astrid were the only ones who didn't seem to fear him or his threats. Everyone else was just staring wide eyed, scared shitless. "I'm gonna sleep, is there a spare room?"

"There's a blow up mattress under my bed, you can stay here," Astrid offered him and he nodded as he got out the blue air mattress and started to get it ready. 

"I'm gonna go too," I said and Kyle nodded. I followed him to his room but Rick was the only other person that left and he actually left the building. Today has been . . . Interesting. Definitely not a usual day for me but I doubt I'll be spending the day with that lot again, too much commotion. I got on the spare mattress in Kyle's room and said goodnight as he shut off the lights. 

I'm going to find out what really happened to Allie. I promise.