I'm Special, Bitch!

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I entered the school with a small grin on my face on Monday. The fact that I could feel many people staring at me didn't help either. For the first time in a long while I was actually happy. And determined as much as ever. I was certain that Jayden really was sorry for the way he had acted, but it didn't take the pain I had suffered for so many years away. I don't think anything ever will. But, maybe one day, I'll be able to look back and not hate him as much. But that day wasn't any time soon. I replaced the frown that had appeared on my face with a smile. I saw Jewel leaning on the wall as she spoke to Devon so I started walking towards them. Maybe if I busied myself, people would get bored of staring at me and look for something more interesting. I mean, I know I'm the most interesting thing ever, but…come on give me a break!

"Morning," I smiled brightly when I reached them.

Jewel eyed me with a smile. "I like those denim shorts. Where'd you get them?"

Devon chuckled and hugged me lightly. "Morning."

I nodded and shifted from one leg to the other. "I feel really awkward. It feels like everyone is staring at me," I said quietly.

Jewel laughed. "That's 'cause they all are."

I smiled. "I'm famous."

She giggled then stopped abruptly. "Guess who's walking this way?"

I turned to see Jayden talking to a guy a few feet away from us, but his eyes were on mine. A slow grin covered the beautiful face of his as he patted the guy's shoulder and started walking towards me again. I grinned at Jewel and walked to meet him halfway. The eyes on us were burning my back, but I chose to ignore it.

"Good morning," he said as he stopped a few steps away from me.

I didn't know what to do. I clasped my hands behind my back and met his silver eyes. Should I take a few more steps and kiss him as I wanted to? "Morning," I smiled finally.

"You look beautiful." His eyes left mine to roam over my body swiftly before returning to my face again.

I took a step closer. "Really?"

"You always do...always did." His eyes went to my lips when I grinned slowly.

I tried not to show the pain I felt on my chest, which grew heavier. "Why, thank you. You can be very charming if you wish."

He stepped towards me and put his hands on my arms, holding me where I was. "Oh yes. And right now, I want to charm you into kissing me."

I laughed. "Everyone is watching us. Y'know that right?"

He looked around briefly and chuckled as if he had just noticed the curious eyes on us. "I guess. But most of them know about our past now."

My eyebrows rose and I fought to keep the smile on my face. Not give anything away. "How?"

"There are people here who remember you, Chyna."

I smiled. "Of course."

"So," he looked around again and grinned. "Y'wanna give them something to talk about for a few weeks?"

"Hmm," I put my hands on his shoulders and forced myself to forget the past when I looked into his eyes. Jayden was too smart not to see the pain in my eyes if I didn't carefully hide them. "Why don't we?"

He leaned closer, slowly and finally his lips touched mine lightly. When I realized he was pulling away, I stepped closer, my hands tightening on his shoulders and kept his mouth on mine. He couldn't get away that quickly.

When I finally pulled away, my hands still on his shoulders, I noticed he was grinning widely. Oh, God, he was so beautiful. I struggled to breathe. Why was it so hard to breathe when he was around? I was beautiful, but never had a boy told me that I took his breath away. Why the hell was life so flipping unfair?