give me love ✧ max mills

eight | alone

g r a c e

"did you see the way harvey was looking at you today? i mean..he looked like you two were really close," my best friend, mel, said as we walked home together. i smiled sheepishly and giggled. "i guess you could say we're sort of friends," i replied, biting my lip. should i actually tell mel?

"wait. you and harvey are just bestfriends again? after like two years of no communication?" she asked, looking at me while walking. my grip tightened on my books as i nervously looked at her. "well..i mean, not exactly. we're just friends because of max," i replied, scared of mel's reaction.

my heart suddenly dropped at the thought of max and my face faltered. mel noticed. "are you okay?" she asked, placing a hand on my arm. i shook my head as a few tears fell down my cheeks. she suddenly looked very concerned.

"what's wrong?" she asked, making us stop walking. "i'm scared," i replied, looking at her. "of what?" she asked, confused. i was silent for a moment. "grace. you can tell me anything we're bestfriends," she replied. "mel," i finally said, taking a breath. she looked at me questioningly.

"i'm pregnant," i finally told. a feeling of relief washed over me as soon as it came out, but at the same time, i nervously looked at mel as she stepped back a little.

"what? wait. is this a joke?" she asked, gaping a little. i silently cried even more as i shook my head. "oh my..oh my god grace," she whispered with a taken-back look plastered to her face. "i'm-i'm so sorry," i replied, touching her arm. "i've gotta go. see you around grace.." mel said, regretfully walking away. i ran after her. "n..no.. mel! p-please don't lea-leave me.." i exclaimed, grabbing her wrist and making her turn to me. regret brimmed her eyes as tears rapidly ran down my face. "i'm sorry grace. i'll talk to you later," she said, pulling away and leaving me there alone. all alone.

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i walked home alone. i felt like an outcast. my whole entire life was falling completely apart, and i'd be stuck with it forever.

max was a popular player who would most likely leave me as soon as these twins are born.

harvey and i will probably lose contact again.

i haven't heard from my dad in two days, nor have i seen him.

i probably just lost my bestfriend, my only friend.
and, to add onto everything else, soon enough, i'd be even more of an outcast at my school.

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once home, i announced i was there, but there were no answers. alone again. no ones home, just my luck. at this point, i didn't have anyone to talk to or to listen. i felt ashamed, stupid, guilty, and so many other horrible emotions.

i went into my room and listened to music while booking my next doctor visit. it was actually next week. next week, i'd be four months pregnant, and i'd already begun to show. after next week, i would try my hardest to be homeschooled.

i needed to tell max about the appointment, but i didn't want contact with anyone at the moment. i'd decided that my top priority, no matter what, we're the babies. whether i was alone or not, i was going to be a great mom.

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*ring ring ring ring ring*

*ring ring ring ring ring*

*RING RING RING*

i jolted up from my first peaceful sleep in a month, and looked at my phone. it was max calling me. if already missed eight calls. i must've accidentally fallen asleep while thinking about everything. oops?

i picked it up.

"hello?" i said into the phone, my voice tired-sounding. "grace? where are you?" max asked me with concern. "what do you mean?" i asked back, confused. "you're late for dinner with my parents!" he said quietly into the phone.

my eyes went from squinting to wide open. "oh! sorry! i'll be there in ten minutes!" i replied, hanging up and shooting up out of the bed. i threw on a pair of knee-ripped blue jeans with a semi-loose copper colored long-sleeve off-shoulder top , grey ankle boots, and a few matching bracelets. i also wore my 'm' necklace and lightly brushed my hair so that it was in loose waves.

i then ran downstairs, yelled i was leaving (which got no reply), went outside, and literally jumped into my car. i pulled out quickly and drove to the mills' house.

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i knocked on the door and nervously waited for a few moments before it opened. max smiled at me and seemed to be taking the sight of me in for a few moments while he looked me up and down. i got inside and he whispered into my ear, "nice baby bump."

my eyes shuddered as i looked down and saw it, a small bump which was poking out just a little. "oh my god. i didn't even realize..." i whispered back, stammering on my words and not knowing what to do. he chuckled slightly and smiled at me. "it's cute," he said. i smiled but was still really nervous and embarrassed about it.

i was actually showing.