give me love ✧ max mills

thirteen | acceptance

g r a c e

"how is she?" both max and harvey asked at the same time as i walked out of my mum's hospital room. "she's doing a lot better," i replied, wiping a few escaped tears. max hugged me and rubbed my back in comfort. i hugged back, of course.

harvey gave me a quick smile when i looked at him. i returned the gesture and felt so happy and secure. i realized in that small moment that both of them cared. it was crazy to think about in all honesty. i mean, just a few months ago, max ignored or picked on me, and harvey and i never talked. how was it possible that all of this was happening?

"when can she go home?" harvey asked as max and i pulled away. he also had shaken all of the thoughts from my head when the words filled the air.

"tomorrow. she'll just be in bed for a few days. my dad had smashed a beer bottle and cut her with the glass in her chest, almost hitting an artery," i replied with relief that i could actually say she was coming home. "thank god she's okay," harvey commented, making me feel more of the feeling i had felt earlier as max and i nodded. i couldn't quite pin the name of the feeling, although it was at the tip of my tongue.

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we decided to go get some food then go shopping since i was no longer...'skinny'. once we had finished eating, we went to the mall and shopped for a few hours. it was actually fun, modeling for max as he judged the outfits, and catching glimpses of harvey in the background almost breaking things and messing the store up. harvey's so much to deal with sometimes, but in all honesty, you can't help but love him.

as we shopped and these small moments where max and harvey would laugh at what i said or smile at me occurred, the feeling kept showing up. the feeling i couldn't name, the feeling i adored.

max had this side where he'd be super sweet that i'd never known before now. he gave me this feeling where it was all going to be okay, like i've got him through thick and thin. cliché, i know.

and harvey had a side where he could go from the goofiest goon in the world to a serious harvey. it was sometimes confusing, but most of the time, i'd laugh quite a lot at his mood changes.

sometimes, harvey and i would team up on max just to annoy him. it'd end with all of us laughing or joking around.

it's amazing.

it kind of feels like they've been here with me forever, but then i realize we only just started actually associating with eachother, which is crazy to think about. it's crazy to think about how i'm carrying max's twins, how harvey's my bestfriend now, and how i'm completely myself while being with them.

yes, harvey's taken the place of mel now. i haven't heard from her in a bit, and don't plan on hearing from her in a while. it's sad to be honest. she was the one who'd come up and talk to me at school and not be scared to sit with the 'girl with no friends'. i miss her, not going to lie, but i'm not going to let her stop me from everything good in my life. if she leaves, so be it.

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"maxxxxxx," harvey's voice rang out as max and i cuddled on the couch like any 'couples goals' couple would, although, we aren't a couple.

"what," he replied, looking up from his phone at harvey, who was walking downstairs with a sweatshirt and joggers on that he'd just bought. "have you seen my phone?" he asked in a quieter tone than before. max and i looked at eachother and laughed. "guys? what'd you do?" harvey asked, a little panicky.

i smiled at him cheekily. max looked back down at his phone and laughed a little. "grace..what've you done?" he asked, so very worried. i got up and led him to the counter where his phone was. "oh, so nothing hap-" he started to say, before he saw his lock screen and scrolled through his camera roll, which was a lot of pictures of max and i. we'd be in different poses in each one. "what the heck.." he whispered, laughing. i smiled. he smiled back, unable to be mad at me.

he started laughing. "i thought you had done something harsh," he commented, going and sitting down on the opposite side of the sofa as max. i laughed and sat down in between them, but leaned on max. "neverrr," i replied, laughing a little.

we then watched a movie, but my mind was elsewhere.

right then, right there, in between the boys, the feeling came again. the feeling making me happy, the feeling making me smile to myself..the feeling i call acceptance.