Infatuated Bliss

Pull It

These voices

They won't let me make my own choices

Won't let me know what the truth is

Because the truth is

I'm suffocating on all these doses

These doses of medication to make the pain go away

To make the tears stop when I still have so much to say

To stop me from wanting to kill myself every single day

But now it just makes me want to fade

Fade back into the demons' grasp

Because they know I won't last

Wishing to pull the trigger

Wishing I didn't miss her

Wishing I wouldn't cry when the memories got disfigured

And I'm ranting all this shit on Twitter

Staring down the barrel of this gun

God, you know I'm done

I have the shotgun in my mouth

Ready to leave so I can stop screaming out

Now, I don't have to drown

Breaking down as I pull that trigger

Can barely move my finger

And all it took was a little flicker

Pulled the trigger

Because damn-

This world is bitter