It’s really hard some days to wake up and decide that you’re worth being saved and you’re worth being redeemed. That’s the first battle of the day, opening your eyes and telling yourself that you will let yourself heal, that you deserve to heal and you deserve to one day be happy. Sometimes, you lose those battles in the morning and that’s what makes the Bad Days. That’s when everything you do and see and are is poison, everything everyone tries to do for you twists the knife in deeper and nothing is ever okay. But there’s something to be said about spending a Bad Day with people who woke up that morning and decided for themselves that you were worth saving. As much as all you can do is feel like poison and unworthiness, they make you feel a little more okay and Bucky didn’t know how to thank Steve and Natasha for that. There weren’t words in any language he knew. There was no phrase he could write. Love is something that’s nearly impossible to describe, but Bucky tried to communicate it through small smiles and the way he tried to be okay when they asked him. He tried to communicate it through being there for them when they needed him and in the end, that’s all you really can do.
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Run (A Bucky Barnes Recovery Story)
FanficA Bucky Barnes recovery story. Completed. First book in the three part 'Run' series. Sequels are 'Ready Set Breathe' and 'To Go Unseen'. Also found on FF.net and AO3 PG-13 for some violence.
