(You can play what ever one of his songs you want but this is by far my favorite)
Or these but I suggest you listen to one of his songs.
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Some times I feel numb you know. Like what the fuck am I. Who am I?
Grayson comes behind me as I touch my imperfections in the mirror.
I remove my hand from my face. He kisses my shoulder and looks at me. I put my head down.
"Hey look at me." He says picking up my face
"I know my girl is some where in there. You're trapped in your mind." Grayson tells me.
Some times I just want to yell from the top of my lungs SAVE ME!
But I can't let this shit get to me I have to carry on. To be honest I have no clue what's going on in my head.
I just keep crying and I don't know why. Like everyone just watches as I bleed.
My depression always finds a way to hold me back. Like I am prisoner in my own mind.
Depression is a curse. I don't know if I'm trapped or dead inside. Like there is no end.
"Baby your everything. Don't let your depression stop you from seeing what you really are. Which is an amazing girl. You are just a lost soul some times but that's okay because I am to." Grayson says looking into my eyes.
"I-I'm stuck,in my own head."
"My heart cant take all this damage." I tell him.
How am I supposed to save myself. Anxiety makes it worse. Like I want to end it all but I'm to scared.
Sometimes to scared to move or to breath. Like I freeze and I don't lose control. I'm just not in control.
My mind takes over my body. People say I annoy them by always taking about my depression. That's how I know who are my true friends. My true friend know exactly what I'm feeling like.
It's like some times I want these people to know how I feel but at the same time I would never wish this on anyone else.
I'm sorry I'm just sad.
I can't control what goes on in my mind. I can't control my depression.
Some times my mind makes me think killing my self is okay. I just want to let go.
"I know my queen sometimes you just want to let go. I just want to let you know you are my only one." He whispers to me.
I've been up all night. He stays with me until he knows I'm okay.
Oh I love you so well. "Just hold on,Okay?" He ask me.
"Okay."
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B-A-D L-O-V-E ✦ Grayson Dolan
Fanfiction2018 © Nova is a bad girl with horrible intentions. She messed up and screwed around many times. She has always been alone. Will that change the day she meets her partner in crime?
