Sensational~Choni~

29. {Forever}

Toni-

I put on the horror movie and I was sitting there thinking that maybe I'm taking this situation differently, maybe I'm being too nice? I don't want to attack her, but I'm not acting slightly angry? She's going to think it's going to be all the time, and it's not. I'm practically letting her win, and I don't know...

She was trying to get comfortable on me, so she tried resting her head on my shoulder. I crossed my arms across my chest, and I also didn't make eye contact with her. I think she knew something was wrong because she moved away. She put her head on her pillow and held another pillow close to her.

I felt terrible, I wanted to protect her. I uncrossed my arms and I put my arm around her, she then scooted closer and put her head on my stomach. I had one arm wrapped around her, and the other hand, played with pieces of her red hair.

I knew if I didn't comfort her right now she would be scared and I wouldn't want to do that, I'm not happy with her but I'm not going to let her lay there and be scared.

She fell asleep halfway into the movie but I ended up finishing it, I mean I loved horror movies so why wouldn't I. But once the movie was done I pretty much fell asleep in the same position I was, I didn't want to move Cheryl so I just had to make it work.

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When I woke up Cheryl was gone, she was nowhere to be found. I looked around the whole room and she wasn't anywhere. I started to feel panicked because why would she just leave without telling me. I quickly pulled out my phone and I tried calling her a few times, she just wouldn't answer. As I was about to look around again I hear the door open, I look at the door and there she was with a tray of food.

"Oh, you're up. I was going to surprise you with breakfast in bed." She says coming closer to me.

"Well, you made me panic because I didn't know where you were," I say walking back to the bed.

"I'm sorry, I just wanted to surprise you." She walks over to the bed so she could sit down next to me.

I look at her and give her a small smile, "thank you." I say to her.

"Anything for you." She mirrors the smile.

I look at what she got me and she got me pancakes with a side of fruits, it was kinda cute. I immediately started to eat. I was much hungrier than I thought, but then again I woke up worried.

"How was everything?" She asks as she wipes her mouth with a napkin.

"Really good, thanks," I say.

She puts the cleared plates back on the tray and moves it aside.

"Would you want to go to the beach for a little bit?" She asks.

"Sure." Was all I said.

She looks at me confused, she looked at me like she was trying to solve a puzzle on my face.

"Is something wrong?" She asks a bit confused.

"No. Of course not." Again, that's all I said.

"Obviously there is, I know you TT." She sighs.

"I'm fine, okay?" I feel frustrated, and I'm not sure why.

"Okay, so do you want to go? Because if you don't then we won't." She sighs.

"No, we're going to go. So let's go get ready." I roll my eyes.

She looks at me and then she looks down at the ground. I didn't know what was wrong with me, I just felt frustrated or something. Maybe I was angry? I don't know but I feel bad, she shouldn't deserve this. It was how long ago, I should just let it go. But why can't it? It's like it just keeps bugging me and I just can't forget about it, and I don't know how to not think about it. Maybe I'm still held up on the whole Veronica thing... I really hope not. Because I love Cheryl, I do, I love her so much. But it's hard to forget when you've been hurt.