C H A P T E R S E V E N T E E N
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song of the chapter
~Breakdown by Ar'mon And Trey~
"And imma breakdown
'Cause even though I'm kinda heated right now
I don't like it when you're not around
So I think we need to figure this out, right now
Tell me if you, love me, why you leaving?
Thought we were together for a reason"
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justin's point of view:
Alfredo, Ryan, Scooter, Kenny, and Usher all sat around on the couches in the back of the tour bus alongside me. They were all staring at the TV propped on the wall that had 10 minutes and 42 seconds projected on the screen, but the only thing I could think about was Selena. Everything reminded me of her and even though Believe Acoustic would drop in 10 minutes and 42 seconds, I really didn't give a fuck.
For the past week, she hadn't been texting me anything more than one-word answers, and I'm convinced that hurts more than her not answering at all.
It hurts to think about her. It hurts to remember the way she would smile after I kissed her. When I kissed her it felt as if nothing could ever hurt me, and I'm not sure if I'll ever feel that again.
'Nothing Like Us' was getting released on the album at midnight, and I just wanted her to know, but I assumed she was sleeping.
Numbness spread through my body while I looked back through our messages.
January 22 | 12:04 am
justin: Aight just fucking block me then I'm so over this bullshit
justin: If u wanna be like that then just block me so I dont have to worry about getting a text back
selena: i'm sorry
justin: Call me
January 22 | 11:21 am
justin: Call me rn
justin: Selena we need to talk why are u ignoring me it's pissing me off
justin: Just call me when u can
justin: Please
January 22 | 11:19 pm
justin: Babe I'm trying so hard to fix this tell me what to do
justin: I miss and love u so so so so so so so so so so so so much
justin: I never want to lose u u are my world I will always love u no matter what
justin: Even when u ignore me :( haha
selena: goodnight i love you
justin: U dont know how hard I'm smiling rn when can u talk
January 23 | 2:50 am
justin: Is everything ok do u need to tell me something
justin: I can't sleep are u up
justin: I just want u to be happy I dont care if u wont talk to me but tell me you're ok
selena: stop worrying about me
selena: go to sleep jay
justin: Care about u goodnight
January 23 | 4:57 pm
justin: Hey baby I miss u
justin: I'm having one of those days that everything just pisses me off u know
selena: yeah
justin: What'd u have going on today
