Maybe saying it enough times will make me believe it.
Maybe saying it enough times will make me forget your taste.
Maybe saying it enough times will make these marks fade away.
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It’s all lies that you and every one before you tried shoved down my throat
But I can’t swallow it anymore.
This is what you do.
Maybe because I let you.
Maybe because I can’t stop you.
Maybe because I’m scared it’s gonna get worse.
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You hit, hurt and belittle me.
Then you apologise;
Excuses spill out your mouth… It’s always one thing or the other; your emotions got in the way or I should have behaved better or your parents are to be blamed.
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With your hand still on my throat hoping this is how it ends, right here.
But it doesn’t.
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Your apology seemed sincere the first time
The second time
I believed it, it’s about second chances, right?
Boys are mean to girls they like.
He is jealous because he cares.
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It feels so wrong
Like poison seeping under my skin
Like burns and bruises where you touch.
It feels so wrong.
It feels so wrong.
It feels so wrong.
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I’m suffocating in the flames
My friends ask me,”Who hurt you so bad?”
I almost say your name.
Almost.
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One day it all changes. Now or never. The curtain call.
A friendly advice, reckless courage and 2 shots down.
With a gun in my hand I march my way to our house.
Death or freedom?
Maybe in this case they are the same things.
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A/N: Emotional abuse hurts just as much as physical abuse. Just because the wounds can’t be seen doesn’t mean they are not there. Anyone can be in an abusive relationship, it’s not a matter of age or gender. Recognise the signs, get out of it before it’s too late. Seek help or reach out to your friends and family if they can help.
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The Blooms Of My Garden
Poesie'The Blooms Of My Garden' is divided into 6 parts. Every part deals with one theme and various emotions that are associated with it and how the poet deals with it. 1. Love 2. Lust 3. Heartbreak and Closure 4. Self-doubt and self-love, healing and b...
