The Blooms Of My Garden

I Wish I Could Go Back

I wish I could go back,

Fix the mistakes I made with you.

Edit everything that made you think we were not enough together.

I know and I understand that it is more difficult for some to express themselves than others.

You turned my ice cold heart in a warm beating one.
Almost as if you reached inside my chest and melted the ice with your touch.

I lay awake till morning in your t-shirt.

Reliving every moment where your tender hands touched my soft skin and set it on fire.

A fire that turned into scorching heat in your absence... hurting me.

It's been long, way too long.
I'd like to forget you now.
I want this masterpiece to go back to being a blank canvas.

But your memories play inside my head in a loop.
He kissed me on the red light,
he sang to me by the beach,
we danced in front of the fire place,
he kissed me slowly,
he said he loved me,
he held me in his arms,
we got drenched in the rain together,
we star-gazed together,
he let me hold him when he cried,
he let me in,
he showed me his fears...

I don't want it to play anymore but it's like that famous song that caught on and I have to hear it everywhere now.

I'm surrounded by your memories,

The traces you left behind.

Maybe you would have stayed if I was brave enough to love myself.
I couldn't then.

But I wish I had.

I wish I could go back.

I will willingly trade my tomorrows for a taste of yesterday.