please help me (mb story)

chapter 30

Jammie's pov

What is happening here. This is impossible! How is Kevin and ray related. When we all hung out I mean they seemed close but never brothers. I understand why now Kevin only stayed for a couple months. I never asked to go to his house so this could be true. But if ray was so obsessed with me why would he let Kevin go out with me.

"So lemme get this straight so ray and Kevin are brothers. Kevin never brought this up to you."

"Nope never. I never went to his house so this could be true."

"It has to be true we see the pic"

I just cant do this right now so many thoughts are flooding in my damaged mind.

"Get out" I scream. He looks so confused.

"Jammie this is my room. We should talk about this"

"Get out now" I scream loud enough for people 3 houses down to hear me. He rushes out the door and I run and lock the door. I take my phone and plug it up to the blue beats pill on the desk near his bed and blast migos with the volume turned all the way up.

Im so sick of life everything. My mind feels like a small brick room and has a fire. Im trapped and can't get out. I start to scream and destroy anything in sight. I tear up roc's sheets and comforter or his dads. I grab the lamp by his bed and start to smash it repidetly on the floor till the bulb blows . I drop it to the floor.

I start to get visons of kevin pushing me down thosse hard evil stairs. I then see ray come with kevin them side by side grinning evily at me in pain. I can never get away. In rage I tip over the dresser and all the drawers open up and all of roc's clothes come out. That took so much strength and I'm still very sore and weak from the beating I start to bawl in tears sitting on the floor in pain. I get up and turn to the song I was here by Beyoncé.( if you can ,play the song while you read this)

I run into the bathroom and stare at the disgusting thing in the mirror. She has dried up tears on her cheeks. Her hair is in desperate need of a wash its all clumpy and greasy. Her face is unrecognizable bruises are everywhere. It seems that this bruises are never gonna vanish. This girl is not me. I use to have such a wonderful full bubbly life. But this is my second time running off with my boyfriend that cheated on me I'm pretty sure twice now. I grab the lamp from the floor and smash the mirror up. Tiny Pieces of the glass fall in the sink and floor instantly. I stare at the pieces of glass thinking of my fucked up life. I open the mirror and see pills . I cant decide which way I want to die. I want something fast and easy. I wish I had a gun. I start to cry even more sitting on pieces of glass not caring about the pain. I finally come up with a good idea.

I hear roc and his dad begging me to open the door. I ignore them and slowly close and lock the door behind me. I walk to the bath tub. I see a bloody dirt bathtub that I was just in. It brings me a flash back to when Kevin smashed my head repeatdiely in the wall. My head start to have pain from the thought. I punch the water but It doesn't do anything but splash back into my face. I empty the bath and turn the faucet back on and wait till it fills to the top . I grab the pills and get in still cringing from all the scars that Kevin left. I stare at the white blank walls laughing at me.

I hear them chant "Jammie your an excuse to life".

"Shutup" I whisper. Who is saying this. I look around and faintly hear roc and his dads screams. Maybe there saying that.

"Just think about it Jammie. You got raped by your own brother! Your dad had a plot to kill you. Its pretty much your fault why your mom is dead. You constantly get beat up and everyone turns on you. All your friends are dead or gone. "

"Shutup" I say louder. Im trying to drown out the words but its too loud. I try to plug my ears but I still here it.

"Eventually ray will come back and kill you. Its only a matter of time before roc leaves and cheats on you AGAIN. Or what if roc was behind this the whole time. What if he never cared about you. He doesnt love you. Its all your imagination."

"Shutup" I scream from the top of my lungs.I hurry and pop 4 pills in my mouth. The voices are right. I start to hear laughing a lot of it. I cover my ears with my hands and try to get rid of it. I start to cry even louder. I start to scream and splash the water. I stop and start to feel me drift. I start to listen deep into the song I hear through the bathroom door.

"I was here...

I lived, I loved

I was here...

I did, I've done, everything that I wanted

And it was more than I thought it would be

I will leave my mark so everyone will know"

I feel my eyes start to close Intill big strong arms pick me up and lay me on the ground I start to hear faint screams and shouts probably directed to me but I was happy. No more pain in this world. Its over now.

Roc's pov

As soon as I leave from my room I hear migos play. I hear her screaming and things breaking and shattering. I get scared and start to bang on the door screaming for her.

"Dad come help me" I scream towards my father downstairs.

I hear him rush upstairs.

"What happened" I think jammie answered his questions we hear more breaking and screaming and crying.

I start to bang on the door even more. "Where is the key dad"

He runs downstairs and its probably 3 minutes before he finally comes back upstairs. He gives me a key and fumble with it in the lock intill I open it. My room is a mess. My dresser is tipped over my clothes are everywhere. My sheets are pretty much fabric now. I rush too the bathroom and feel the door locked. I start to repidetly bang and kick the door till it opens. When I do, I find pieces of the mirror are all over the floor. I see Jammie in the tub with bottle of pills in her right hand. She looks weak, drained , and I know for a fact she took more than one of those pills. I grab her out of the bath lay her on the ground and hurry to put my robe on her .My dad is in the back calling the police. I look at her more closely and she is dozing off. I start to shake her and talk to her to make her stay awake. Im panicking so bad right now. I hold in my tears and hurt because I need to show Jammie I'm strong. I continue to shake her Intill the ambulance comes. They speed away with her in the back and me and my dad are right behind him.

The only question I really have is.

Will jammie be okay?

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