The Words Left Unsaid-Poems

False Memories

I haven't been my normal, positive self recently. I've started daydreaming what my life would be like if I had more things under my control.
I want to hold your hand under the sunset again.
I want to remember the joy in your eyes when you believed that I truly was okay.
I want to relive the moment where you told me that you cared about me.
I want to smile as I don't have a care in the world other than what will happen tomorrow.
I want to see that smirk of yours cross your face one more time.
I want you to tell me that you trust me.
But those things never happened.
I look at the beautiful sunset alone.
I look away as you mention that day.
I feel a part of myself get chipped away with every rumor about you liking someone else.
I worry too much for me to get back to sleep.
I pray that you  can smile at me even when you mock me behind my back.
I realise that nobody can trust me if I don't trust myself.
-That's a part of life.