The Words Left Unsaid-Poems

another

Another day
Another boy
Another voice I force myself to repeat
So that I can claim I love it
Although I really don't

Another day
Another girl
Another voice I pray to hear
Whether she speaks to me or not
I pine for her nonetheless

Another day
Another death
Another moment of suffocation
Knowing I can't be honest with the people surrounding me
Due to fear of disgust, betrayal, and being shunned

Another day
Another slip-up
Making the wrong step
Confused faces fill my head
As I wish I could un-say what I said
Knowing they'll think I'm insane
Or worse

Another day
Another drowning
I bury my honesty beneath my skin
No matter how much it hurts
Until I can find the people who actually know me
Instead of this cardboard cutout's silhouette

Another day of me hiding my pride
And my love for the girl who sits across from me
Who will never know how I feel
Because the people who drag me to the gym hall
Are all expecting me to end up with the guy
I said I liked at one point
Even though I don't like him anymore
And I want to come out already
But I feel like their lips hide knives
And there fists are full of stones and matches
Ready to burn me
And bring me to the ground
As if I deserved it
But I don't...