At first sight

Chapter 19

Note: Please do not steal the bands name (Guilty Thorns) because I am in a band called Guilty Thorns, we formed two weeks ago so I'd appreciate it if you don't steal it, thank you xoxo

It's been three months since we started our band, and we already were performing ar clubs, and others places. It's been a blast! I haven't even thought about Gerard for awhile, that is until I was at work, (I'm a stripper :/) and heard a familiar voicd on the radio as I was getting ready to go dance.

Long ago,

just like the hearse you die to get in again...

we are, so far from you...

BURNING ON, JUST LIKE THE MATCH YOU STRIKE TO INCINERATE!!

I began to breathe heavy and ran to the radio and turned up the volume.

What's the worse that I could say?

things are better if I stay, so long and good night so long and good night!

I grabbed one of the dancers by her arms, tears filling up my eyes, my voice cracked as I spoke to her.

Rose: Do you know what that band is called?!

Her: Yeah, it's My Chemical Romance! The lead singer, Gerard Way is kinda hot.

My heart dropped to my stomach as those words came out of her mouth.

MY Chemical Romance

Gerard Way

I was close to bawling my eyes out, but it was my turn go out on stage and dance. I held back my tears for later and got on stage.

Later that night after work, I hurried to the nearest record store, mascara covering my face from all the crying I'd done and also because it was raining. When I entered the record store I pulled down my soaking wet hood, and ran to the M's section.

Rose: My Chemical Romance, My Chemical Romance, My Chemical Romance....

I scanned through every cd, until I found two My Chem albums. It was their first two albums, and the last two the record store had, I ran to the cashier and basically throwing my cash at him and ran home. The girls were gone, so I had the apartment to myself. I threw my wet jacket to the floor grabbed a bottle of vodka, and put one of the CD's in the CD player.

Hearing his voice blasting through the apartment made me cry harder, it felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest. I gulped down some vodka, letting it burn my insides. I lit my cigarette and listened to the whole first album, then the whole second album on repeat.

After hours of listening to the album, I was lying in the middle of the floor, staring at the ceiling, but all I could see was Gerard's face.

Like the lyrics Gerard sang....

"I'm not okay"

and honestly I felt like without him, I'm not okay. In fact, I think I'm going insane. I decided to take a shower and cried out the rest of my tears, after taking my shower, I noticed something different about myself.

My scars and bruises on my back were completely gone, I smiled to myself and put on my underwear and spandex volleyball shorts and a sports bra. I hid the albums under my bed, because if Brook saw them, she would know that I miss HIM, so much, and she would probably keep an eye on me. I heard the girls coming in. I met them in the living room.

Jamie: Omg, guess fucking what?!

Rose: Idk what?

Rebecca: a guy have been watching our gigs he wants us to sign to his record label, tomorrow, wet set up a meeting tomorrow!

I squealed in excitement and jumped on the girls, making all of us fall to the floor.