At first sight

Chapter 35

It's been three months sense I've veen staying with Gerard. Andy is on tour for another two months, and meanwhile Gee and I have been having an affair with each other, I feel bad but I love the feeling at the same time, I mean I'm doing this with the love of my life, and we both don't look like shit anymore, we've talked about stop having this affair but we can't help but give in. I spoke to the girls and they don't even know about the affair, and neither does the guys, we decided to keep it on the down low, until Andy is back and I'll tell him.

Any way, after hours of sex with Gee, we lie in bed out of breath, sweaty, and smiling.

Gerard: It gets....better...everytime...oh god...

Rose: I know -giggles-

Gerard: I have so many scratches on my back. -chuckles- Come shower with me?

Rose: Why ask?

We giggled and rushed to the shower.

After our shower we got dressed, I noticed that Gee's hair got long again I smiled to my self. He is so adorable. Gerard catches me smiling and smiles back, he picks me up and puts me on his lap. He kisses my cheek.

Gerard: Guess who's birthday is in two days?

I blushed, my birthday was coming up and honestly I wasn't too excited about it. I don't know why, I just wasnt. After an hour of goofing off, we lied on the floor.

Gerard: ohh, Rose what're we gonna do about us?

Rose: What do you mean?

Gerard: Well, we both agreed on telling Andy about our affair, but after that what's gonna happen? Anything could happen? He could forgive you and stay with you and I stay lonely....or he could break up with you, but will you come back to me, or push me away? I'm scared that it will happen.

Our fingers were intwined as we spoke and looking up at the ceiling. I sighed, thinking about what he was saying.

Gerard: I want to be with you. What I did was stupid and selfish of me. I regret it everyday of my life. And because of that stupid decision, I lost you again....

A tear rolled down his cheek. I didn't say anything. I felt queasy after a while and ran to the bathroom to puke. After that I brushed my teeth. I don't know what that was about, it was probably all the smoke I inhaled when Gee smokes. I found Gerard in the living room, listening to Deathbeds by Bring me the horizon, I love this song, he lightly grabbed my hand and we slow danced to it.

Gerard: Hey...everything will be okay...

he kissed my head and after the song went off he took a shower. I talked to the girls over the phone for awhile, then cooked dinner. When Gerard came to the kitchen I barely reconised him because he dyed his hair red, I smiled to my self, remembering the day we met and how we became a couple. I kissed him lightly and gave him his plate. After dinner we went to bed and "slept" .