At first sight

Chapter 31

After Rose and Gerard left, I immediately felt terrible. I stood in the middle of the lobby, with my hands in my head trying to let what just happened sink in. It started to rain really bad, I ran to my car and started looking for Rose. After twenty minutes of searching for her, I finally found her sitting on a curb, crying. The rain was pouring down on her, I reached to the back seat and grabbed my jacket and got out my car, I wrapped my coat around her and helped her in the car then I got in and drove away.

The whole drive home was quiet, and the sound of her sniffling. When we got home, we just stood in the middle of the living room, she ran to me and embraced me in a hug, then we both fell to our knees , she started crying as I held her close to my chest.

Rose: -crying- IT'S ALL MY FAULT ANDY, IT'S MY FUCKING FAULT!!!

Andy: No, no it's not.

Rose: Yes!! Yes it is! I kept stressing and over thinking too much!!

I was heartbroken too about her miscarriage I was looking forward to helping her taking care of the baby, I kissed the top of her head, and rubbed her back shushing her. I told her how Gerard reacted to the news, then that's when everything got quiet.

Later, that night I ordered pizza for us.

Rose: ....this is my second miscarriage....something's wrong with me...

Andy: There is nothing wrong with you. You've told me about your first miscarriage and that wasn't your fault, and your second one isn't your fault either. Maybe you're not ready yet...maybe it's time for you to have a baby yet.

Rose's Pov

Andy's words were calming to me. Maybe he's right. I faintly smiled and thanked him. I kissed him on his cheek and headed to the bathroom for a shower. After my shower I decided to call Gerard to see how he was coping with the news, once he answered, I was close to crying because he answered crying.

Gerard: Hello??

Rose: Hey....

Gerard: -sniffling- Looks like we won't be seeing our little miracle now...

Rose: I'm-

Gerard: Don't you dare say you're sorry. It wasn't your fault, it's hurting you aswell. If this is anyone's fault, it's mine. All of this wouldn't of happend if I didn't kiss that girl. Now sense that we've broken up, we're both stressed and depressed and I'm the reason why we are depressed.

Rose: -sighs- Gerard-

Gerard: All I want to say is I'm sorry. For everything. -Hangs up-

I sighed and went to bed with Andy. He was already knocked out, I lied next to him and cried myself to sleep.

Why?

I still love Gerard, and I lost my baby.

And I hated myself for it.