LOVE IN HIGH SCHOOL

chapter 17

Mikey's POV

I actually didn't really know how to react nor think when Pete told me the news. Of course, I was happy for him. He's my best friend, but I kept thinking about it over and over again. I'm selfish and I just hate myself for it. I can't go on like that, but I don't know what to do.

I unlocked the door and kicked off my converse. Frank and Gee are home already. Isn't that just great. I took off my jacket and tossed my bag up on the counter. Which is ironic, because I always nag Gee about it and now I'm doing it. I sighed as I took some leftovers from the fridge and put them on the plate to eat. Alright, that'll work.

I stroll back to the hallway and open the doors to my room. Exactly what I needed today. Gee was sitting on the bed, with Frank sitting on his lap and ha was all over him. Gross. I wanted to apologize and get out, but then I remembered it was my fucking room and they're in there, making out. "Excuse me," I said, rather calmly as I stood there, observing them. I'm going to snap. Right now, right there.

Frank immediately pulled away and got up. He looked so embarrassed and without even looking at me, he bolted out my room. Gee got up as well and awkwardly walked over to me. I grabbed his shoulder and closed the door behind me. "Why were you two in my room?," I asked as I sat down by the desk, looking at him.

"You could've knocked."

"Sorry, but this is MY fucking room, not yours. So don't think you can do whatever you want."

He shrugged and got up, "sorry bro."

I got up and almost knocked my stuff of the desk. "You know what? I've got enough of you and Frank sucking each other faces off every goddamn time I come home. I told you so many times but no, you don't want to hear any of it. All you care about is yourself. Now, get out," I snapped at the end and pushed him towards the doors. Which surprised me, because I rarely raise my voice.

He rolled his eyes. "Mikey, come on. Stop being such a wuss and let go off it," he said, his voice calm as usual. I hate that. I pushed him outside and locked the doors behind him. I don't want to hear any of it, thanks.

As I finally did that, I flopped down on the bed and looked at the ceiling. I hate this. I hate how he doesn't care about my feelings, when I told him about Pete. He doesn't understand at all and I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel stupid for telling him.

"Mikey, open up for fucks sake. I don't have time all day for this, you know?," Gee knocked on the door again, probably for the twentieth time now and I was finally over it. I got up and unlocked the door. I can't stay mad at him. Like at all.

"Now tell me about Pete," he finally said and flopped down on the bed again. I sat down on the chair, nervously playing with my fingers.

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"Tell him!," Gee finally said, breaking the silence. "It could be risky, but damn take the opportunity. Who cares, what'll happen. Just suck it up and tell him." Yeah, I told him about it. Everything basically. Not sure if I'm alright with it, though. I'm probably going to regret it later.

"You really think that's a good idea?" I asked, very skeptical about it. Gerard never has good ideas. Never. He takes stuff way too easily and then he'll have to face with consequences

My phone suddenly rang and I grabbed it. "Hey Mikey!," Pete basically yelled into the phone almost the same second as I answered. "Mikey listen, I've got to tell you what happened. Come over! It's super important," he said, his voice filled excitement and pure happiness. I couldn't help, but to smile. I looked over at the clock on the wall. "But, isn't it like 11pm?," I asked as I walked around my room.

"Yeah I know, but come over. You could sleep here too. Please, it's super important!," he said cheerfully and sounding really impatient. I smiled and nodded. "Alright, I'll be there in 15," I said and hung up.

Gee looked up from one of my books and raised his eyebrows up at me. "Who called?," he asked, sounding a bit interested. "Pete..," I said and sat down next to him.

"Well, what are you waiting for then? Get dressed and let's go. I'll give you a ride," he added and got out for me to get dressed. I quickly pulled on the same thing I wore today in school and walked out

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"Glad you could make it," Pete said and smiled at me. I nodded and got inside, placing the coat on the radiator. "You look nice," he added and I lowered my head and found out that the floor is pretty interesting.

"Come on!," he said and pulled me into the living room and sat us down on the sofa. "Now, where do I start?," he spoke loud, mostly to himself. He giggled for a bit, but then looked up at me. "You alright?,"

I looked up at him, "yeah. I wanted to tell you something too." I blurted out and immediately regretted it. Well done. Can't believe I'm taking Gee's advice for it.

"Oh? What is it? Mine can wait," he said and smiled once again. He was looking at me with expectations as I tried to make up some sentences what to say. I don't know. "Pete, I..," I started, but shut up shortly after it. I'm going to embarrass myself in a matter of seconds here. Without any or very little thinking and got closer to him. Before I could process what I'm actually doing I pressed my lips against his. I can't believe it. I kissed Pete.

My best friend who has a boyfriend.

"What was that?" Pete asked after i ended the kissed. I didn't know what to do, i was confused and almost Frozen.

"I falling in love with you, Pete." I told him. I finally did. Maybe that was stupid, maybe that was for the best, so i didn't have to hide all of that from him anymore. He just stood up and looked at me full of meaning. I didn't know what was he thinking.

"I know we're best friends and all. I know, Pete. I know. I just can't see you still be with someone that broke your heart again and again, Pete. You don't deserve it." I said but tried to control of my tone not too loud.

"And i don't care if you eccept it or not, i don't even care if you hates me after this. I can't do that anymore. I'm just tired pretending." I said and stepped away and left him stood there.