LOVE IN HIGH SCHOOL

chapter 18

Patrick's POV

I told my boyfriend Pete that my parents want to meet him, and he agreed with that. And that night, i was waiting for Pete to came while i was watching a movie.

My mom even couldn't be patient to see Pete. She always check the time to check was Pete already got here or no, so I called him to asking and he said he's on his way.

Few minutes later, i heard the door bell rang. I got up and opened the door, and Pete was standing and gave me his big smile.

"Hey.." i greeted him and smiled back at him.

"Hey." He replied.

"You look amazing." I said.

"Thank you" he responded. I ask him to came inside and told my mom that Pete was already here. My mom welcomed him all excited.

"Mom, this is Peter My boyfriend." I introduced him to my mom eventually.

"Hi, Pete.. it's so nice to meet you." My mom said as she gave Pete a hug.

"Hello, Mrs. stump... Nice to meet you too." Pete said.

"Patrick always talk about you." My mom said.

"Oh, he does?" Pete asked.

"Yes. He said that you are the best bassist." My mom said which Made me a bit confused why does she using that Topic after so many things that i've told her about Pete.

"Oh.. thanks. And Patrick is an amazing singer." Pete responded and smiled at my mom then he looked up and smiled at me.

"Aw.. thanks, Pete" i responded and smiled at him.

"Well, come on, dinner is ready." My mom said. We stepped into the dining room to join the dinner. We talked a lot about the relationship between Pete and I, my mom also told the story when i was a kid, and many more.

Everything seemed to be great. I'm happy about that. But i still couldn't lie to my self, that it was felt akward about Pete and i. I thought that was because of i still couldn't be committed to him. Did i still love him? I wasn't sure.

But Pete looked like he was enjoy that night. He was talking a lot with my mom. And after he said goodbye to my mom, i guided him to the door and opened it to him.

"Thank you, honey. I like your mom" Pete said all excited.

"Yeah.. i'm sure she likes you too." I said and smiled at him.

"Well, see you at school tomorrow?" Pete asked.

"Sure." I responded and kissed his cheek.

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When we were in school, Pete's been different. Maybe it was just my opinion or he was being different. But honestly, i just won't say anything. It would Make this situation would worse.

After class, i got the message from  wanted to meet me in music room. So, i went there and Saw him standing while he played the bass guitar.

"Hey..." I greeted him as i walked slowly and took a seat. He stepped and sat next to me.

"I need to ask you something, Patrick." He said. I was curious of what he was about to say, because he would never called me with my name if it wasn't serious.

"About what?" I asked him confused because i didn't remember we had a serious problem. I could see Pete took his deep breath before he would asking whatever he wanted.

"Do you still love me?" Pete asked. I was suprised when i heard that and a bit confused.

"Why are you asking that?" I asked him back.

"I don't know about you, but i feel the distance between us now. It's all different. And to be honest to you, i'm too scared you Will break my heart again.. I'm tired of it, Patrick. I'm not  even sure that i can trust you for the third times, and i don't even know if i'm still love you or not." Pete's Words Made me sit in silence.

I didn't know how to say, But he was right. I felt different between Pete and I even though i apologized already, but for some reason i didn't feel the same. I guess that was because i couldn't be committed.

"...i don't know if i love you or not..." I said, without making eye contact with him. Because i felt that way too

"I'm just... Not ready for making a commitment." I explained.

"I found someone that was always there for me." Pete said. And i realized that it didn't hurt my feeling anymore. It was convinced me that i didn't love him anymore.

"Good. I hope he can give you what i can't give to you." I said.

"Can we be friend?" He asked me.

"Sure. Why not?" I responded and decided to looked at him and gave him a smile, he smiled back at me.

"Thanks, Pete." I said.