LOVE IN HIGH SCHOOL

chapter 20

Frank's POV

I want Gee to pay attention to me, but I guess this isn't happening. It's so not fair. What did I do wrong? Also, making out in his brother's room wasn't on purpose. Well, not fully. Anyways.. I lightly shake my head and catch up with him by his locker.

"Hey babe" I start, but get interrupted by Bert making his way towards us. Most likely him. He probably can't stand seeing me. They talk for a bit and they both ignore me. They're talking about homework and studying. Which means they'll work together. Together. Do you hear that!

Think fast. Without any thinking I blurt out that I need some help with my math homework, which was a total lie. Besides, I don't even have any homework for that. I was hoping Gee would change his mind, but didn't. They left and I stormed away from them.

How could he choose him over me? Is he really that better? With that in my mind I stormed down the hall and bumped into Mikey. He looked down and then back at me, surprised. I blushed, I was still embarrassed about that yesterday. "Sorry for that.." I quickly say and walk on. I walked in the next class and just sat down at the very back.

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Last class is history and Gee and Bert are sitting together. Mikey plopped down on the seat next to me, but I didn't really talk to him. He seemed deep in thought anyway. I hope he's alright though. Even if we don't talk much and I only see him when I come to visit, I'm worried. God knows who's he thinking about.

I look up to observe Gee, I needed to ask him something. I wanted to ask him out, but something catched my eye. They were talking, both looking at each other. He likes Bert. Oh my god. He's totally into him, just look at the way they look at each other. I knew it, I fucking knew this would happen.

Just then, the bell rings and I get up. I ignore basically everyone, even the teacher who's calling me to come back. I rush to the cafeteria and sit down on my usual spot. Soon Jon and others join me. I ignore them, along with Gerard. Everyone.

"Frank, what's wrong? Why are you upset?," Gee asks as he rushed by my side and stop, turning to him. "I don't want to debate it, Gerard." I snapped and got away. I never used his actually, full name. I always said either Gee, babe, baby.. Whatever.

I don't know what to think. 'Oh Frankie, what's wrong?' 'Oh tell me, Frankie. You seem upset.' Oh yeah, I fucking wonder why. Gee's lying to me. Him and Bert and definitely more than friends and he doesn't even try to cover it up. This isn't fair. And he promised I'm the only one. Clearly, I am not. He doesn't care about me and this just shows. I rather aggressively rub my eyes, almost poking them. Ouch.

I'm not going to cry here. I'm not. I turn the corner and bump into Bert. Just like the first time. I glance up at him and rub my eyes again. Almost. Almost.

"Oh! What's wrong?," he asks with his odd calm voice and looks down at me. No need to do that, I'm 5'6 not 4'11. "Stop doing this with Gee," I say calmly, yet threatingly. Which is hard and I look far away from dangerous. Mostly because because he's 20cm taller than me and looks bigger. Maybe it's because im almost breaking down. I don't know.

"Excuse me?," he asks, still looking at me. His eyes are almost piercing through me as he walks away from me, not saying anything. This didn't go the way I wanted.

I angrily kick one of the lockers, making one of the teachers come out the classroom and shush me. As I care. I don't. I walk out the building, straight back home. I lay down on the bed, looking at the ceiling. Bert and Gee are constantly hopping around my mind and I can't ignore it. My phone suddenly rings and I grab it, checking the caller ID. 'Gee <3' I know what's going to happen. He's calling to break up with me. I just know it.

I ignore the call and try to keep myself together as I finally get up and try to find a tissue. Why this? Why did he have to go and fucking fall in love with him. Him.

My phone's still ringing and I can't ignore it forever. I grab it, answering it. "Y-yeah?," I answer, sounding probably awful but that doesn't matter. He's going to end it anyways.