Change Your Fate

Chapter X

Hiiiii y'all. How are our amazing readers doin'? Y'all are probably thinking, what the hell is this and what the hell is going on. What's Chapter X? Well, my little darlings, Chapter X is a chapter that's going to be uploaded between two chapters and has nothing to do with the last chapter. But it has something to do with the story and sometimes, they might even be really important. A Chapter X can be romantic, dramatic, funny, mysterious, there might even be a little hint hidden in the chapter ... Hmmm, mysterious? Anyways, ENJOY

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Jesy's POV

December 2010

Suddenly being here, the tattoo shop, in this room, surrounded by all these frightening images, I felt scared. Yes that's right, me, Jessica Nelson, felt scared. I always back out at the last minute and now I'm backing out of getting this tattoo, the same way I did at The X Factor auditions ... I always keep telling myself this year, this goddamn year, I will audition. And guess what, I never do it.

What are the chances of me ever making it? Come on, let's be realistic here.

"Excuse me, miss. Do you have an appointment?" A senior, skinny guy with his arms covered in tattoos asked me from across the room. "I ... I- " I want to make an appointment. Come on Jesy, say it! I want to make an appointment.

"I wanted to look around but I'm done now. Thank you." I rush out there, without thinking about it twice.

God damn it! Why am I such a scared ass. Why can't I for once do what I want. I look at shows like The X Factor and Britain's Got Talent, and all these people and groups just do it. They just chase after their dreams. This one group, Diversity, even won. I never expected it.

Talking about Diversity, that one boy, Jordan ... dear lord, he's hot. Looking at him makes me sweat like a sinner in church.

Damn, I need to cool off. I'm getting hot.

I enter a small store, the one I always go to. It's small but it's cute, and I'm so used to it. "Hey, Raj." I wink at the boy behind the counter. "Hey, Jesy. In need for some caffeine?" He says in his adorable indian accent, already knowing what I'm here for. "Absolutely." I wink.

Another reason I come here is actually because of Raj. I relate to him so much. It's nice to talk to him once in a while. He's the only one his family to not be a doctor or surgeon and I'm the only one in my family to not have a high prestigious title or a PhD.

"How's Pria?" I ask about his pregnant sister who was late. She was supposed to give birth a week ago and it still hasn't happened. "Great, she finally went into labor." Raj smiled and exhaled, probably being happy he didn't have to deal with his hormonal, crazily aggresive, pregnant sister anymore. "That's amazing, I'm so happy for her." I know Pria and she is a wonderful girl. I knew how hard this pregnancy was on her, poor girl. Sometimes I just gave her a hug out of nowhere.

"Was it a boy as I expected?"

"Unfortunately for you Jes, it's a girl. They named her Lilly."

"Damn." I laugh. "But the sex of the child doesn't matter. As long as she's healthy. Lilly, what an adorable name."

"She's a cutie." Raj smiles, I'm guessing he's thinking of his niece.

I smile at him before going to the far end of the store, where all the cool drinks are stored. Just as I'm about to pick up a Red Bull, I notice a beautiful, dark-haired girl. It's people like this who make me insecure.

She moves closer, searching for something specific and that's how I notice the small, beautiful tattoo on her wrist.

Look Jesy, she wasn't afraid to do it. Or maybe she was ... Why don't I just ask her?

Because you're not the kind of girl who randomly asks strangers questions.

Yeah, yeah, screw yourself conscious. I'm asking her.

"Hi, I'm Jesy," I say to the girl who suddenly turned to me. Damn, she really was gorgeous.

"I'm Leigh-Anne." She says to me, smiling. She should stop smiling so I don't look like Voldemort compared to her.

"I know this is random but were you afraid to get that tattoo?" I ask, motioning towards her wrist. "I want to get one myself but I chickened out."

Leigh-Anne looks at her small tattoo and turns back to me. She shakes her head politely.

"How did you do it? I'm desperate," I say, almost pleading. How is it possible that she wasn't afraid?

Leigh-Anne seemed to be struggling in her head as she looked at her tattoo and back at me. Finally, she sighed and gave me a coy smile.

"At first, I wasn't afraid, but then he pointed that big sharp thing at me, I don't know what it's called," she laughs. "I almost backed out. But the thing is, I might be afraid at that moment, everything you do in life is frightening at one point. Every dream, every decision will scare you to death, and that's okay. It will always scare you, but no matter how scared you are, at the end, there is no better feeling than accomplishing what you wanted to do so badly. There is nothing better than looking back at how scared you were, and knowing you did it anyway. Once your fear doesn't stop you, nothing can stop you."

I felt a spark of admiration at what she just said. Even more, I felt inspired. Her words inspired me like nothing had ever done before.

"Thank you so much." I smile and had the urge to hug her even though she was a stranger.

"It's nothing." Leigh-Anne shrugged with a smile. "Don't let your mind deceive you into telling you can't, while your heart knows you can."

This girl really is amazing. "That's wonderful advice, again, thank you."

"Get that tattoo, look back, be proud of it and of yourself." She winks before heading to the counter.

"It was lovely meeting you, Jesy." Leigh-Anne says a bit louder for me to hear. She exits the store before I was able to to say anything back.

That was an odd, yet great encounter.

I hope to see her again someday.

I check out and say bye to Raj, feeling confident and so inspired.

"Once your fear doesn't stop you, nothing can stop you."

And it was about damn time I proved myself that my fear can't stop me from going after what I want.

I'm getting that tattoo. And I'm getting it right now.

You know what?

I'm going to audition for The X Factor next time and I'm not even having second thoughts.

Fear? Hell, no. Confidence.

Thank you, Leigh-Anne.

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Ps, today or tomorrow, depending on where you live, July 17th is Fabienne's birthday!! YAAY! Anyways, Happy birthday babygirl! I love youuuuuuu.

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Pps, don't you just love Raj? He's our babe