Change Your Fate

Chapter 6

Perrie's POV

"Don't worry, Jade. We will find out what happened and who did this. No matter what" I say, to a freaked out Jade. Leigh, Jesy and I are standing around her, while she sits in the middle. She holds her hands in front of her eyes and sobs softly.

However, she seems more convinced than she was five minutes ago. Something changed, it's like she's got some courage again.

"Sorry for my outburst, girls. It's just ..." she gasps for air. "All this, it's so intense. I don't know what happened but it's like the missing puzzle piece was found. The feeling of incompleteness, it's gone when I'm with you. My dream last night ... That dream told me so many things ... about you, about our lifes before ..." she gestures with her hands, "all of this. This fucking mess."

My mind is spinning, there's so much new information to deal with. Too much information. I want to believe Jade, I know she won't lie. Besides, I knew what feeling she was talking about. And yes, she was right. When I'm with these girls, that agonizing feeling melts as snow for the sun.

Okay, at all these points she's right. But it just can't be true. I mean come on, how would this have happened? Why would this have happened?

It's just impossible.

Jesy sits next to Jade and lays her arm around her. "Poopey, I know you won't lie. You're the most honest person I've ever met and I trust you. I believe everything you say and you know that. You're my best friend and I can't live without you. But, you have to admit, this all sounds pretty weird, right?"

Leigh opens her mouth to say something, but changes her mind and keeps her mouth shut.

I feel like Jesy and Leigh are waiting for me to say something. I always find the right words to say, but now I just don't know where to find those words.

Jade starts sobbing again, and lays her head on Jesy's shoulder. "Why can't you just believe me? I have never lied to you and I never will ..."

This time I knew what to say, but before I can say something Leigh is ready to have a speech.

"Listen Jade, I know exactly what you're talking about. That feeling of incompleteness, the feeling of not being understood, I know it all. That's why I am trying so hard to believe you, because that feeling is horrible and I don't want you to experience it. But even though I'm trying so hard, I just can't. Maybe you're right, maybe you're wrong. No one knows. I know there has to be a reason behind this all, but I think it's just something we don't see. Like, it's too easy to think about it. Maybe, we were friends during our childhood but we grew apart from each other. Maybe we even worked together, or were at the same campsite during our vacation. It's not that I don't want to believe you, definitely not. But I think we're thinking too difficult about this."

The four of us stay silent, all wrapped up in our thoughts. All having our opinion about what Leigh just said.

My thoughts at the moment are nada. I thought too much this day, I've reached my limit. I can't handle more problems. I can't think about this anymore, I need some rest.

The tears are streaming down Jade's face, and she seems on the edge of passing out. I realize we all had enough, and that I'm not the only one who needs some rest.

Jesy hugs Jade, and tries to reassure her like she's a little child. Jade stares at the wall and says nothing.

Leigh plays with her fingers. A nerve habit she has had ever since I knew her.

"Maybe we should go, I think we all had enough of today. We need some rest" I suggest.

"Yeah, you're right" Leigh says.