This Love {SasoDei fanfic}

SasoDei fanfic chap 9 {This Love}

Chapter 9

"This pain"

We've been walking silently for what seems like forever, when we come to a fork in the path. "This way." Says Konan, and she turns to the left. Then, we hear a rustling sound coming from the right side. She turns around swiftly, and her eyes go wide. "Oh no... I was hoping this wouldn't happen..." She mutters, as her beautiful paper wings sprout from her shoulders. "You guys run! It's a straight path from here!" She yells as she throws a paper kuinai into the dark tunnel. "What's going on?" Sasori yells back, "We're not leaving you here!" She turns back at us briefly. "Please, go!"

Then, Pain steps out from the right tunnel. I gasp and she turns swiftly around as she starts to turn to paper. I see pain smirk. "Konan, I never would've expected such behavior from you." He says. "I wouldn't expect you to understand..." She growls at him. "Sasori, Deidara, please go." She whispers. "Please." "No way!" I say as I get into a fighting stance. Sasori does the same. "After all you've done, you can't expect us to leave." I say, and Sasori nods.

She doesn't have time to answer. Pain lunges at her with a rod in his hand, and she reforms behinds him, and attacks. He spins and knocks her down. "You should know better than to fight me, Konan." "And I do." She replies. "But love is something that I'm willing to die for." He positions his rod, ready to strike her. "Run!" She yells. But it's too late. He plunges it deep into her chest, and bloods drips out of her mouth as she screams. She knew this would happen. Oh no... She knew all along! "You bastard!" I yell, as I lunge towards him. "You're weapon-less..." He taunts, as he throws another rod at me. I flinch, ready for impact, but the hit never comes.

I open my eyes, so see Sasori in front of me. Pain is on the floor, dead. My eyes go wide. The rod is stuck in his side. "Sasori-" "Deidara." He interrupts, as he collapses. I catch him. "Sasori!" I yell, my eyes filling with tears. He's bleeding badly, and he clutches his side. "Ugh..." He says, flinching as he tries to extract the rod. I help him pull it out. "D-Deidara..." I pull him closer. He can't die now! "Deidara..." He says, slightly smiling. "I've got to stop the bleeding!" I say, ripping my shirt and pressing it against his wound. He flinches. "Remember that t-talk we had a y-year ago? When we s-said th-that if we w-were to die loving each other, it-it wouldn't be so b-bad?"

(Start flashback)

"Deidara, if we die, we will no longer be able to encounter moments like the one we just experienced." "But if I die knowing that we tried, and that we ever had such experiences at all, I shall die happy." I respond. He looks out at the distant mountains. "Deidara, this is not based on lust, you must know this. If I die knowing that I was by your side the whole time, loving you," he looks back at me. "I suppose it would not be a terrible way to go..."

(End flashback)

"Y-yes I remember..." I say, still pressing on his wound, and caressing his face with my other hand. "Well I-I'm finally l-living up to that, huh?" "No." I say, "You're not going to die. I'm stopping the bleeding." He grabs my arm that's pressing the cloth to his side. His eyes are urgent. "Deidara, stop. It-it's not going to work." I stop and look at him. "Wh-what are you saying?" I ask in a whisper. "I'm s-saying that I-I'm going to die..." He whispers back. "Don't say that!" I say, the tears running harder down my face. "I'm sorry... But I can feel it, Deidara..." I shake my head.

"But I don't want it to end like this..." I sob, as I lean down and touch my forehead to his. One of my tears fall down his cheeks, and joins one of his own. "Deidara..." He whispers. "Yeah?" I whisper back. "W-Will you j-just- kiss me? One l-last t-time..." One last time. One last time... One last time?

(Start flashback)

"I hate thinking about losing you." He kisses me softly. "Hey, listen to me." He says, "Nothing is going to happen to me. I'm never going to leave you." I nod, and melt in to him. "Will you just- hold me?" I ask.

(End flashback)

That memory somehow makes this situation worse. The tables have turned, and now, Sasori is the one asking for comfort. And he said- no... Don't think about that, Deidara. I nod, and gently press my lips against his. He brings a hand up to rest on my cheek. It's bloody. I'm scared beyond belief. I can't imagine losing him. I pull away gently. "I love you, Deidara" He whispers so quietly I can barely hear. "I love you..." His hand falls from my face. His eyes are closed. My eyes go wide. "Sasori!" I yell, shaking him. "Sasori!" He's not responding. I check his pulse, and try to hear the faintest of a sound coming from his lungs. I hear nothing, I feel nothing. I feel numb. He's not gone. He can't be gone. It simply does not compute. Is he gone? Oh my god, he is, isn't he? "No, no, no!" I yell, as I pull him closer to me. "You promised! You promised you'd never leave me!" I sob, my tears blurring my vision. "Please!" I scream, "come back!"

This pain I'm feeling is unbearable, and somehow, even though Sasori killed Pain, he's somehow won this fight. I should've been the one who died! But at the same time, I would never want Sasori to feel the way I'm feeling. I can't stand this. This is somehow the worst thing I could've imagined... All the memories are coming back... The first night we left... Whenever I had the dream... He was always there to comfort me, and now, he won't be. In the end, it was me who was comforting him as he took his last breath. The nightmare had come true, in a sense, and now everything that has happened feels like a lie. I give up. I look at my hands, they're covered In his blood... This is all my fault... I finally just collapse beside him. I'm exhausted. I rest my head on his chest. The tears are still falling. I did what I could, and he's not coming back...