Secret

Chapter 7

Chapter 7: Stress

It had been 2 weeks since he went to the studio and found a very depressed Yoongi and since then lots of things had happened. Namjoon had told Jin about Yoongi's state of mind and Namjoon and Jin had had a long talk with Yoongi. In the end they had decided to go warn one of the managers, even though Yoongi had protested till the very end. The manager had of course taken it all very serious meaning that Yoongi had to go a psychologist again. To say Yoongi hated it was an understatement. Ever since his parents had forced him to go to a psychologist when he still lived in Daegu Yoongi had hated it, and he still did. Luckily for Namjoon and Jin Yoongi wasn't mad at them. He knew they meant well and besides that, he was mad at himself for letting it get this far again. 

For Namjoon it had been 2 very confusing weeks, not because of Yoongi's depression but because of the little sentence Yoongi had said that he just couldn't forget about. He still wasn't sure if he had really heard "Yoonie sowwy" or something else but it had made him pay more attention to Yoongi. Something that let him in a very confused state. The more attention he paid to Yoongi, the more obvious it got that Yoongi could be a little too. Yoongi even slept with a plushie for crying out loud! But now that Namjoon was suspicious about Yoongi being a little, he didn't know what to do with that information. It was very obvious that he couldn't talk to Yoongi about it, he was pretty sure Yoongi would kill him if he tried, and talking to the other members didn't seem like a good idea as well since he wasn't even sure if Yoongi really was a little or not. In the end Namjoon decided to just wait until there was a good opportunity to talk about it to either the members or Yoongi. 

It had also been 2 very weird weeks for Jungkook. Jungkook had been slipping at the most random times without being able to force himself big again. Nobody knew why, not even Jungkook himself but it had been very annoying for everyone. Having your best friend act like a baby while you are in the middle of shopping turned out to be a personal hell for Taehyung, Hoseok will never forget trying to learn little Kookie at least a little bit of the new dances and Jimin had started to get stressed out too because he kept getting called by the members telling him that Kookie was asking for his Dada again. But in the end it had been worst for Jungkook. For 2 weeks long he hadn't felt like his big self, he only felt little or somewhere inbetween big an little. 

"Dada? Whewe is Taetae? I wanna play with Taetae!" "You can't play with Taetae right now sweetheart, he is practicing for our tour!" "But... I couldn't play with him last time eithew" Kookie said with a pout. "I'm sorry prince but we are all very busy right now." "Kookie knows. But I wanna play!" "I know Kookie but you actually need to practice for the tour as well, can you go big right now?" "Kookie's sowwy but Kookie can't." Kookie said with a very sad look. Jungkook really wanted to go big and help the others but he just couldn't, he didn't know what was wrong with him. The only explanation Jungkook could think of was the accident with Yoongi. Little Kookie knew that Yoongi didn't like him but usually he wouldn't show it that much when little Kookie was around. Yoongi leaving the table as soon as Kookie entered the kitchen had been one of the first encounters between Yoongi and Kookie (that Kookie actually noticed) in a while. But then again, it had happened in the past and even though it did affect Jungkook and Kookie, it had never been this bad. "Kookie dwoesn't want Yoonie to be mad." Kookie said out loud. "What did you say Kookie?" Hoseok asked. Hoseok had just walked into the living room where Kookie and Jimin were and had heard what Kookie said. "Kookie doesn't want Yoonie to hate Kookie. But Kookie doesn't know what to do. It makes Kookie and Jungkook sad." "Is that why you haven't been able to go big for 2 weeks sweetheart?" "dunno. Do you think it is Seokie? Cuz I wanna go big, I wanna help Dada and Seokie and Taetae!" "I'm not sure baby, but it might be. I'll try and talk to Yoongi, okay?" "Twank you Seokie!" Kookie said, a bit happier then before. "Can I play with Taetae now Dada?" 

Hoseok went to the kitchen to get some food for himself after his little conversation with Kookie. It had made him sad to hear that it might be because of Yoongi that Jungkook was having such a hard time going big and staying big. Maybe I should talk to Yoongi this evening already. Hoseok thought. Hopefully he won't kick me out immeadiatly. "Why are you grinning Hoseok-hyung?" Namjoon asked when he walked into the kitchen and saw Hoseok standing all by himself grinning. "Oh, nothing, just had some funny thought about how Yoongi-hyung will hopefully not kick me out when I'm going to try talking to him." "I can warn you already, he will kick you out!" Namjoon said, laughing as well now, "Why are you gonna talk to him though?" "Gonna talk to him about Kookie, I think that Kookie is stuck in little space because of Yoongi-hyung. I'm not sure but talking with Yoongi-hyung about it is worth a shot." "If you are gonna talk to hyung about little space you are definitely gonna get kicked out! Good luck though!" Namjoon said while laughing. He would really like to go and see how that conversation would go but he couldn't. He had to go practice some more since this new dance was very hard. 

For Yoongi the last 2 weeks had been horrible to say the least. Having to see a psychologist every other day was both mentally and physically exhausting and on top of that he hadn't been able to slip into little space at all. Yoongi had been tyring to avoid the BTS members for the full 2 weeks because he was mad at himself for being so weak again and he didn't want any of the members to see him in this state. But avoiding hadn't gone very well. Yoongi had to join practices and stuff after all, even if he didn't want to. The only thing he could do to avoid his members was locking himself in his studio but Jin and Namjoon would only let that happen for so long, after all, it was no secret that Yoongi wasn't the best at looking after himself. Right now Yoongi was in his studio as well and he had been here for the past 2 days (besides some practice breaks) when someone ringed the doorbell. "Coming coming" Yoongi muttered even though he knew that the person on the other side of the door couldn't hear him anyway. Yoongi opened the door to see Hoseok standing there. "Hey Hoseok, what are you doing here? Need some help with a song?" "Hey Hyung! No, I don't need help with a song don't worry, I'm too busy with the dances right now to work on songs. I came to talk to you about Kookie." Yoongi froze when he heard what Hoseok said. The word 'Kookie' alone already almost made Yoongi slip because he was so stressed. He absolutely didn't want to talk to Hoseok about Kookie in any way. "Go away." Yoongi said to Hoseok after the shock was gone and he instantly closed his door again (Lucky for Yoongi he had 2 doors meaning he could close at least one of them without hurting Hoseok). "Wauw..." Hoseok muttered. That went even worse then I expected. Hoseok thought. He even looked shocked that I wanted to talk about Kookie, like it scared him... I wonder why.... 

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A/n: Another chapter! It was done faster then I expected :D The members are slowly starting to find out about Yoonie! Who do you think will find out first? :P